the leaky bottle III

a message from the dead....

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 15:49:08 GMT

first, I wnna say how sorry I am for disappearing for 10 months. I moved to mixi but then I did nothing on mixi and then I moved to myspace but did nothing on myspace, and now im on livebook, tagged, iqons, blahblahblah...and still do nothing on any of them except log in a read if anybody else is doing anything interesting.

not to say im not doing anything interesting.

I graduated from bunka fashion college in march, with the Dean`s award, natch. Also appeared as a model in the final show.

Got a job with my friend Gen`s company, as a project assistant. Thats a nice way to say secretary/personal assitant/admin exec/project manager all in one. I almost didnt get a visa. Had to ask a friend who runs a fashion business to get me one. My company i fucked up, I it keeps me on my toes but I deal with millions and millions of dollars in deals and i have NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK IM DOING. I also have to be in an office in shibakoen 9-6 everyday. IM A FUCKING O.L. I get paid 300,000 y/m tho and for a new grad its not bad. Im just in a rut in my day-job and it is only going to get harder..the only room for growth I have is in finance. Do I want to do that??

But in other news, I am the fashion columnist for The Japan Times Newspaper. check it out, yo www.japantimes.co.jp search for misha janette . been doing that since may...I am also in charge of covering the fashion shows every season. front row everytime, baby. That keeps me in the industry---and far more connected than styling ever did, although not nearly as creative.

I went to Mexico with my family (cabo san lucas to be exact) in march before I started working. Was only in my hometown for two days...very rushed but nice to see the fam.

I also went to las vegas three weeks ago. My mom flew down from spokane, and 3 of my best childhoos friends came in (one is married, one engaged, one just chillin) and had the best time EVER. las vegas is rad. I got to hang in VIP with coolio and danny masterson (from that 70s show) at PURE and we went club0hopping and went to danny`s suite which was from the Rain Man movie. Also saw ashanti and nelly. las vegas is crazy.

I ended up debuting as a talento. I was on a variety show every week for a few months this summer. I was a designer/stylist and hung out with oguro yuko(aka yukorin) and hanawa and akimasa haraguchi. They took us to Hong Kong and Macau for the grand opening of the venetian hotel. biggest hotel in asia. I designed a dress and obi and made it for the show- 6,000$ worth of materials---and got to walk the red carpet etc...was an amazing experience.

Next I want to go to europe. thinking about december. if I can afford it/get time off (uh..both are pretty big deals).

My roommates both left. My brazilian RM got deported in sept (bad attendance at school). The american girl left the beginning of this month. I ended up paying for oct myself (holy shit, a lot of yen)but i think i have found a new one who is coming the first week of nov. from washington DC. I have been spending the entire MONTH at the apartment enjoying being alone/cleaning things up. but now im starting to get really lonely and depressed ad i know why i have always wanted to have a roommate in the first place. I will have an extra room with enough area to sleep. if anyone wants to crash, the space is there.

I have no BF...not even someone I am interested in. THe EX`s ex-wife got pregnant wit another actor two weeks after we broke up, and married him. subsequently both my ex and this other guy debuted as brothers on the same drama 10 years ago. My ex then started dating another actress and are now living together (but hardly see each other, apparently). And I hear most of this news on the morning TV. lovely. tried to be friends with him, but its not working. movin on...

had a great friend I met this summer, we were like soul mates talking for hours,hanging out and partying like crazy everyday. then he went back to NYC to finish college at columbia. my best friend zanna moved to australia for good recently, and my mentor has quit her company and is planning on moving to shanghai or france. WTF...maybe its time for me to leave, too?!

I have been riding my bicycle to work back and forth 35 minutes each way everyday. Also exercise when watching tv. I have huge thighs and muscly arms but feel good. Gained a bunch of weight after vegas...trying to get back into shape.

I wan to say especially sorry to seifaiden who sent me a wonderful card that i have had in my purse for MONTHS and meant to write back. and i cant believe how much everyone`s life has changed in these past 10 months. I don`t know if I will continue to write, but even one entry is better than none. IM STILL ALIVE.

新年のご挨拶（2007 ver)

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 15:23:59 GMT

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!!!!

another year has passed! i dont manage to write much, but i do this every year so ive gotta sum this shiot up before i crash early in my hung-over stupor before going back to reality tomorrow.

some highlights of the year:

styling wise: January saw me getting my first paid styling job for an unknown young wanna-be talento. the pay was shit and the job was ridiculous but it got me on my way and gave me confidence.
Fast-forward 5 months and I am put in charge of Olivia`s styling for all promotions concerning her single `a little pain`. men`s nonno, kera, vivi, CDTV, music fighter, street live with tsuchiya anna etc.... i felt like i was way underexperienced for all this shit ! but i am forever thankful to olivia for giving me the chance to do it and jumpstarting my career! i also styled jai west for MTV, as well as was published in 3 other magazines in Japan as well as getting published in a European magazine `boutique`! I did some amazing shoots this year for my portfolio and even got a website http://www.mishajanette.com

school-wise: school is a laugh and i fukin rule... no one seems to have the confidence or drive to actually see their dreams through. i cant believe how many days these people miss. hardly anyone else even tried to become an assistant or do their own test shoots and they all just shuffled themselves into shuushoku and can now look forward to chaining themselves to a company as a `prfessional apparel salesperson`. yowch. i get the honor of having all of my projects being put on display for not only their originality, but for actually looking like something that wasnt made by a grandma in a garage as opposed to being something someone actually must WEAR. i did photoshoots for school projects that got me an interview with TOKION magazine and am now working to grab the dean`s award for my last and final piece i designed. heres hopin! and i graduate in march! woo-hoo!

people-wise: i have the MOST AMAZING FRIENDS EVER. i cannot believe how i could possibly even begin to function without these people. and they all have helped me and rallied behind me sooooo much. no matter how far away from home or my family i am, i know i will never be alone. these people ARE my family!! my best friend the casting director and all -around crazy japanese-aussie girl Zanna (aka zan-dawg), avex artist personal english teacher and brand PR maniac aussie lubo, the amazing chef limpei, the beautiful and wonderful olivia, the spiritually overflowing okinawan shogen, charisma designer and stylist tara (aka taraman),his darling little estetician girlfriend tomo-chan,my fried and mother-like figure yuuko, a guy who is like my big brother- my rock-gen, a father-figure to me DJ dragon, my first industry friend and always smiling (and kimono-clad buddha looking) ko-chan, my little space-boy issei and my roommates aimee and miguel who keep me from breaking down when i am feeling extremely lonely and am thankful to have another human around me at home.

special mentions to other amazing people i have met this year- japantimes editor martin webb, dazed&confused editors yashi & junsuke, narimiya hiroki, rila, paparazzi-like photo ikesue san, party man sasaki-san, cracked out but always interesting socialite takako, producer iwakuma-san, my awesome hair stylist chieko-san, genki bananafish manager kyoko, maruyama tomomi, avex manager koseki-san, looks homeless but is probably loaded komu-san, chilled out and refreshing music producer yamazawa-san, takeda shinji, charisma french-boy and token ike-men gay friend/up and coming talento vincent, dream-following and upliftig musician jerry-san, soh-chan, youko, the guys at BigBlackMaria, bulhan, baby mary, and raymon among MANY others... these people are so awesome and inspiring.. cant wait to see more of them this year.

love-wise:
well, this year was DEFINITELY the most intresting year i have had for relationships despite it being not all that heated-up or life-changing (er..at least i dont think so??). met issei in april and we immediately took to each other, and after months of being super wishy-washy things culminated in a trip to the onsen and we became a couple (although he may argue now that it wasnt that..although this is left up to discussion as i know i didnt IMAGINE when he SAID `lets be a couple`...but id rather this to be left to die in the bottom of the sea.) much to say, i ended things last night...before the clock struck midnight. things were getting cold and awkward. we are friends now.. in fact i think we are closer as friends than as lovers. i still have much love and respect for him and know the friendship will continue into the next year.

also, i had a little fling this summer with this art director named shu who kind of came out of NOWHERE. we went out to dinner, drank, made out, went out to dinner, drank, made out... did that for like a month... he was all like `i love you` and it freaked me out but i was just having fun. met him rather coincdentally at a reception at mado-lounge with gen and his GF and was my normal self floating around the room saying hello to all my friends rather than being with him all night. never heard from him again. japanese guys can be SO FUCKING WEIRD.

career-wise:
all i ever said i wanted for this year was a boyfriend and a job that will keep me in tokyo after i graduate. well, i got BOTH, BABY!
one of my career goals was to do styling. i may have that with TOKION.
i became interested in being in the entertainment world after meeting Gen and Iwakuma-san. I got into the eclipse talent agency and i was hoping i could get a job on TV etc, anything, by the end of the year although those chances looked bleak. well, i GOT IT BABY! went to an audition last week to be on one of those wide-shows during the morning for housewives called hanamaru-market on TBS. i auditioned for the part of a bilingual english convo teacher and didnt get the part. some pro from NHK got it. but i DID get signed on to be the girl that the famous peeps on the show use to practice what they just learned. i must pretend not to speak japanese, and must act in these silly skits. its LIVE tv, and its EVERY WEEK (tuesdays, at about 9:30am to be exact). i get a manager and everything. starts the 9th of Jan. super sweet! ALSO, i was invited by Iwakuma-san to be on his variety show which is shot in Kyushu called seishun-ginko. i will fly to fukuoka on the 10th and record two weeks` worth of shows as a gourmet reporter (i think thats what im doing?! you know..i gotta be like OISHIIIiiiIIIIiii) stay overnght, and then get on a plane first thing to get back to class the next morning! may do this every other wednesday as a regular! i am most excited about all the miles i`ll rack up on the flights! hahahaha now im looking for a proper agency~~super exciting.
as for visa and steady pay i got a random call from gen who is in the family business of investing and buying businesses as well as starting foreign businesses in japan. he asked if i would be his father`s assistant and learn accounting and investing. i would be making money and could get a visa. it would be boring and difficult at first, but the knowledge i could gain would be invaluable. i am 99% sure i am going to give it a go, at least for the probation period when i graduate. oh my gosh, im a little freaked out, but i know i can do it if i try!
so i have had a fulfilling year and all my hardwork has paid off! i really worked hard this year and im so glad that it didnt go unnoticed..

spiritually-wise:
very much lacking in this area, although i definitely have found more of myself, who i am. last year i was often accused of being `two different people`. one of me that was `the fashion girl` who was sweet, polite and always dolled up being around japanese people, and then the me you could only find at home or with other foregners who became cynical and bitchy but relaxed. this year i dropped the act. im ok with not being loud and i like being polite and shy (like i always have been- it pisses me off when people tell me this attribute is me `becoming japanese` uh, no its not, thankyouverymuch), but i can be a little bitchy in my Japanese when the mood arises, and i am confident in myself. definitely dont like being loud. i have zanna for that. haha. never made it to church this entire year though i really contemplated going xmas eve. hoped a trip overseas would refresh my soul but didnt make it out of the country. i DID start going to a gym and save for this winter break where ive had fuckin WALKIN PNEUMONIA the whole time, ive made it at least 3 times a week and have felt great. next year i wanna work more on polishing up myself.

other events of special mention:
*japan fashion week spring- sitting front row at like 20 shows
*meeting SUZY MENKES
*crashing DRESSCAMP afterparty
*meeting takeda shinji not knowing who he was and making him dance with me
*getting my ass grabbed by narimiya hiroki ( hes gay..its kinda cute)
*onsen trip with issei even though my body totally freaked out and i got sick and my skin flipped from the hot water.
*getting the SUPER DUPER VIP TREATMENT at mado lounge, vanilla, velfarre, velours etc..we had our own room, our own ushers neverending champagne, and got to use like SUPERSECRET backstage doors and shit.
*going to amazing parties like Lancome, Sonia Rykiel, Bloom, Dazed&Confused, TokyoNite, Bento, HanaMi, Dita, Evian, BernBern, Le Baron, Diesel, Topshop, Y-3, and many more i cant remember.
*being invited and attending SHORTSHORTS film festival and afterparty (duh)
*the world cup. it was when i was chasing issei.. parties like every fucking night. hooooo that was fun!
*making out with gen in an empty VIP room in Vanilla and then getting caught.
*going to my first hostess club
*one amazing night beginning with mado lounge and ending at yellow, feeling like a princess
*amazing DJs like Morita, Dragon, Issei and my favortie Osawa Shinichi of Mondo Grosso
*made it to the ocean
*became an illustrator! painted/drew the walls of a slect shop and hopefully next year will turn to a design job doig all of their original illustrations
*living at limpeis wonderful french restaurant in shimokitazawa

a meme i did last year:
1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
whoah, see above

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i didn't have any resolutions(never really make em--think they are too much like excuses)

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
my cousin had a child

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes, two people back home died. my youthpastors oldest son, died in a boat accident on a lake and drowned. he was 7 years old. Also my childhood friend who actually was my churchs head pastors adopted son Jeff died after his pills for fetal alcohol syndrome mixed with some antidepressants. he was 22. these people sometimes appear in my dreams, which means their death has quite registered with me yet because im so far away from home.

5. What countries did you visit?
the country of Tochigi (hell, after living in the middle of tokyo, going to tochigi FEELS like its far enough to be another country)

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006.
someone to cuddle with

7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 14th, met issei

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
oh..wow... um, i suppose being Olivias stylist is my biggest achievement?!

9. What was your biggest failure?
not ALWAYS giving 150%

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
fukin fell down too many stairs to count... tore a ligament in my ankle after tripping in strappy shoes, had huge scars after tripping in some other heels at lexington, also managed to get walk-in pneumonia at the moment..

11. What was the best thing you bought?
woah... ummm...my computer? but mostly cuz my other one died and i HAD to buy one... but i guess if i had to pick, it was the only big thing i bought this year. i did get some smashing duds and shoes but i didnt shop nearly as much this year as i have in years past

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my best friend zanna for being there for me. i was pretty proud of myself this year too, though. went through a lot but stuck it out.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
was disappointed in a person who`s name starts with and ends with I

14. Where did most of your money go?
clothes, taxis, and food

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
aaaaaah~~~~wannabe fantasy romance

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
strings of life by Soul Central

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
I was happy last year, but im soooooo happy right now!

ii. thinner or fatter?
man, i waver so much... but probably thinner (on a diet now for TV, man!)

iii. richer or poorer?
FEEL richer, but not sure about the numbers

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
last year i said `getting up and moving`. this year im gonna say `thinking AND moving`

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
worrying about the DUMBEST SHIT EVER and expecting everything to be perfect... i wish i could just fuckig CHILL OUT sometimes

20.a How will you be spending Christmas?
or SPENT. did my eikaiwa baito then went over to limpeis house to spend a wonderful evening with my friends such as zanna lubo liv shogen etc and eat the most amazing dinner ever. WE HAD FUCKING TURKEY WITH CURRIED MUSHROOM STUFFING..OH MY GOOOOD IT WAS SOOO ORGASMIC

b. New years?
went to Mado Lounge with lubo and his aussie/korean friend David for countdown. broke up with issei, then had the best time watching him, shinji, and dragon perform as a band right after midnight. it was sooo crowded and so much fun. afterwards we all hung out in VIP and met up with zanna and lubo and then zanna, lubo, limpei, me and david went to limpeis place in ebisu for a super chilled night of drinking wine and eating soba. got home at 9m this morning!

21. Did you fall in love in 2006?
yeah, a lil bit

22. How many one night stands?
None. last night came close though.. but i didnt want to start out on the wrong foot

23. What was your favorite TV program?
decided my japanese was sucking and not good enough so started watching tons of japanese tv. i like `the best house`, `bari bari-value`, `london hearts`, `hosoki kazukos zubari iu wa yo` , `sekai gyoten news` among others. i just watch whatever is on when i happen to turn on the TV. avoided dramas at all cost. the only foreign show i watch is LOST

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I dont think i've ever "hated" anyone.

25. What was the best book you read?
dont think i read a book this entire fucking year. :thinks: yeah... totally didnt

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
more house music...hed kandi label, progressive trance and protoculture, ladytron, free tempo... all club stuff

27. What did you want and get?
a more exciting life than the year before

28. What did you want and not get?
more moolah? a trip overseas?

29. What was your favorite film this year?
oh... ouch. um.... thinking, thinking...devil wears prada ? i actually watched it twice. thats pretty sad, huh...

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
got my bestest friends together for a small casual dinner party and i turned 23

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
a guy who isnt emotionally unavailable?

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
sleek, slightly sporty lots of shiny black with NEON. lots of leggings and super short skirts and heels

33. What kept you sane?
my friends

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
ugh, dont make me say his name AGAIN...u guys probably are like `gee, she isnt OBSESSED or anything ?!?`

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
the prime minister election? the bullying issue? all the suicides over the DUMBEST shit. didnt really follow what was going on back home

36. Who did you miss?
my family

37. Who was the best new person(s) you met?
see above

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
dont worry about little shit so much and go with the flow, jo

39. Quote a song that sums up your year:

its the year of the pig (inoshishi) which is my year... its also lucky 7. i am SO STOKED FOR THIS YEAR, PEOPLE!!!

KOTOSHI MO YOROSHIKU OENGAI ITASHIMASU !!!!!

im back jack

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 13:48:57 GMT

a rundown with pics cuz i cant be fucked to go into detail of 3 months *_*

another photoshoot with M as the photog (even though he hasnt sent me the !"'&$#%& prints yet!!!) @ kasairinka koen out by disneyland tokyo... we did two shoots, one mens one ladies. the security comes over and asks what were doing
sec: what are you doing?
hairandmake: uhhhh....
sec:a photoshoot?
hairandmake: uhh....noo....?
sec: then whats that tripod sticking out of that bag there?
hairandmake: uh...yeah....
sec: you have to pay to take pictures
me(thinking): shit! how many hundred bucks are they gonna want?!
sec: 90yen an hour. please come to the office to fill out the papers. and next time get permission!

haha. for the ladies we shot at this insane cool futuristic observatory and didnt get caught until the very end when the the security finally got exasperated and just let it go. heh

oct was spent going to a lot of tenjikai (exhibitions) for the spring/summer clothig collections. its really hard going because i dont work many stylist jobs and the PR people hover like hawks asking all these minute details about what im doing and i kida just have to shoo them off. a total energy drainer. limi feu surprisingly had some cute stuff, including an awesome skirt with hoops wires in it. heard theyre shooting to show in paris next year

went drinking and to karaoke for the first time in like a year. i fucking love karaoke! got so drunk i came home and threw up. AND managed to lose ANOTHER pair of earrings. i manage to lose jewelry EVERYTIME i get smashed. i loved those earrings too!

went to meet the manager of thane camus (AKA se-in ka-myu) the uber charisma gaijin talento and talked about me and my friend gen getting into the agency. was totally stoked about it, but it seems a little not too on the up-and-up and then i hear its not such a good agency to be in from a friend. totally pissed on my parade. but they put my profile up on their page! (i had no idea..it took them like two months.. ad i only found out when my bud vincent who is also up there found himself and i on there and called me about it!) http://www.eclipsepro.jp

debated whether i should apply to extend my scholarship to transfer to a uni as a 3rd year to get my BA. but then that would mean i would probably want to go to an art school. which means traveling an hour on train. not to mention i would still be a student. until i was 25. with only a BA anyway. i said fuck it, im in the arts and i cant be hiding behind a school desk the rest of my life. time to get my ass moving and get a job and contribute to society (and taxes .._). so i let the deadline slip. then proceeded to freak out about HOW THE HELL AM I GONNA FIND A JOB

beginning of Nov, i worked as an interpreter for 3 days at a german/swiss/austrian design convention. it was hard work at 11 hours a day with only 100 bucks a day standing and having to do `sekkyaku` which means interacting with the customers (and in japan, that means `FOLLOW, HOVER, AD DONT LET THEM GET AWAY`) which i fuckin HATE about sales in japan. but i made quite a few sales and everyone was happy about that even though the con overall was a failure with not enough buzz. got a bunch of free stuff out of it tho.

partied with nagase tetsuro. (read: THE top fucking stylist in this damn country. hes a big ol jolly man. not all that impressive to anyone who is prob reading this, but here its a pretty big bragging story. booyah)

styled for the japanese/canadian half actor jai west. for MTV. mwuahahaha... i got to go chill at MTVjapan studios. the styling was shit cuz i had no budget and i had to beg friends to lend me clothes and accessories so i had to deal with what i had. turned out pretty ok tho and he looked sharp. the studios in japan are super small and not even CLOSE to what it would be like at MTV back home, but i always get a hard-on when im in a studio. GOD I LOVE IT. i even went and saw his movie he was promoting for `hazard` with odagiri joe. crazy movie directed by sono shion who also did `suicide club` and `strange circus` (which issei happens to be in*cough*)

went with my classmates on a `research trip` which was really just `lets go on a tip as a big fucking group to kansai and annoy the shit out of everyone` (i hated all those higschool students on their big school trips in kyoto traveling in big groups and blocking the way EVERYWHERE). i dont hang out with my classmates outside of school, and this time i was forced to share hotel rooms with them. while they all stayed up getting sick off of fran and puka talking about stupid shit, i took long baths and took the chance to catch up on late-night crazy tv shows. kobe was awesome (we stayed at the oriental hotel across from mosaic and harborland on the bay with the ferris wheel), then to osaka for universal studios japan (just as boring as when i went 4 years ago... the spiderman ride was cool, but i cant believe they still have back to the future there?!) then to shorei-ji and shion-in for the night light-up which was super inspring (esp shion-ins main temple. i totally had goosebumps, and it wasnt just because it was fookin freezing), then we stayed at the prince hotel next to biwako, and finally to ginkaku-ji and some other temples before taking the shink home. it was definitely nice getting out of tokyo. GOD I LOVE TRAVELING. i want a job that travels! i wanna go to shanghai. i know it doesnt have to do with anything but GOD I WANNA GO TO SHANGHAI

i met some random guy at a party and he called me up to see if i wanted to view the final showing of some special off-broadway type show at a theater in roppongi. i had some free time so i said sure. it was the.craziest.shit.ever. like, the main characters are all these amazing new-halfs (trannies)with 4 hot guys 4 neutral females and they do all these different types of dancing scenes. the dancing and the costumes and the set, and everything was amazing, my jaw just dropped. my favorite was this scene about a creator who made life-size Noh dolls, but somehow one of the dolls gets a soul and comes to life falling in love with her creator. but the man has a wife, so the doll kills her, and then the man has to kill the doll. it was so fucking cool! anyone in tokyo should totally check these fucking shows out..theyre only like 3,800 a ticket and the theater is behind hard rock cafe in roppongi. after the show, the audience can call one of the performers to their table for a short chat but you have to pay a super high drink fee. like kyaba-kura but with trannies. haha

umm...thanksgiving passed with me nearly totally forgetting it existed blah blah blah, fastforward to the 1st and its my bday! i had the best fucking birthday party ever, and i only invited 15 people but 17 showed up. we reserved the 6-mat loft upstairs in our friend limpeis at-home casual french restaurant in shimokitazawa. it wuld have been a papparazzo`s wet dream. olivia and her BF shogen showed up(shogen is a hot fucking ike-men dude who is on these huge 8-foot tall uniqlo ads all over shibuya atm), with tomomi maruyama coming shortly after (plays `yasu` in the nana movies), then all the K-1 fighters secret gay lover and his friend (who ended up being totally mi-ha =celebrity obsessed and pissing me off to no end and making me wish i never even THOUGHT of inviting him and i told him NOT to bring a friend, and they left wo paying and BUG ME LIKE HELL as to when im hanging out with liv or issei or enter-famous-persons-name-here next and YEAH THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIEND), and then issei actually CAME. oh my god i cant believe it. i havent seen him since then (two weeks) hell, havent really spoken since then either. but thats another story. we totally got caught being all love-love at the AMPM across the street from the train station by another guest who was freaking and telling could get snapped by a photog. err...yeah? but anyway, all of my bestest buds came and it was a blast. all of the flowers i got managed to live quite a while as well~~~

the next week was a surprise party for liv. i only remember half the night cuz i drank a nasty glass of cheap red wine on top of a handfull of gin tonics and ended up passing out and throwing up. ooooops.

SEE THE NECKLACE LIV IS WEARING. i totally made that. its fucking KEWPIE DOLLS, man. i painted em white and one of em pink (mine is neon yellow). she fuckin loved it. i should sell that muther in a boutique

also went to a shitload of parties but made sure to keep my cool. bloom, museum, dita, sonia rykiel, tokyonite, le baron, ROEN, NOi.d.,phantom, dazed and confused, etc etc. parties arent always what theyre cracked up to be tho...kinda *snooze*

been desiging a lot lately, making dresses and skirts for myself and necklaces and paintings for other people. in class we made a coat and mie was fucking awesome (made the hat too):

im making a formal cocktail dress now that is the coolest fucking thing youll ever see. i used digital printing on fucking satin man. most of it is done by hand, and i have to glue 500 black swarovski crystals on it. its a masterpiece! cant wait til its done

also been illaustrating. did this one with ink and watercolor. its an iterpretation of the 3 kings in the bible.

yesterday i went to the press screening for issei and wentz eiji`s movie `captain tokio` it was quite weird and slow but issei was pretty damn good in it, of course. damn him... then i was invited by a producer from TBS to see hikawa kiyoshi (the young enka singer) in concert. all those oba-chan were scary, man. afterwards we went with kiyoshi`s production company to 200- bucks a head shabu-shabu for dinner, and then to roppongis top hostess club. uhh... it was my first time in a hostess club and it fucking sucks. DONT TALK TO ME YOU STUPID HOSTESS I DONT FEEL THE NEED TO PAY A WOMAN TO TALK TO ME, I HAVE FREINDS, THANKYOU. the cele-doll Marie`s older sister is a hostess there. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i have a photoshoot, a meeting with tokion magazines head editor, and a fucking huge business meeting that could change my life to deal with this week as well as a face to face enc with the BF. my head is gonna explode.

im out

quick rundown of summer

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 15:08:31 GMT

wine tasting, parties, galleries, photoshoots, beach, etc etc

um, how the hell do i do quotation marks on a japanese keyboard to make a proper lj-cut?!?

wine tasting in ashikaga, tochigi prefecture

i had like 8 glasses of red wine, white wine, and champagne... we even had a bottle of year 2000 aubod(e?) the winery is actually a school for mentally disabled kids and they work outside at the winery for income and get to live there. i actually felt a little jealous...!! what a fine education! the woman who owns the winry was the most amazing woman ever. we were talking about casinos and amusement parks, and when asked what she thought was the funnest thing she could think of, she replied, `well, LOVE and ROMANCE of course!!!`

the crew chillin at the winery. we sat drinking and eating for 6 hours. i think i gained like 3 kilos.

meeting up with old friends

i hadnt seen tak in like almost a year. this was the night of the azabu juban festival so i couldnt stay and chill with him and chalo long, but we stopped for a drink at the dubliners pub in shinjuku. i also met up with akira and hiro (!! who ran off to canada, seattle, and chile for a year and a half!) at chalos bday party. it was nice to see these guys from my first year here in tokyo. brought back silly memories!

parties!

oh god, i cant even remember them all... but since zan-dawg was overseas for so long, and i was actually working, i didnt get to so many.

diesel (which got me in a ton of mags with liv... i think i look pretty rockin!)

there was also garcia marquez, dazed and confused, skyy vodka, masquerade, tokyo nite, martin margiela, organ bar, MUSeUM, topshop, and lots of dinners and drinking with new friends (and usually in shimokitazawa)

the beach!

i actually made it to the beach! gen and i took a saturday and went down to katase-enoshima on the odakyu line to check out a little party my friend was giving. it was raining in tokyo so i was worried but it was perfectly clear down there...and not many people as well. the beach was dirty as hell and i didnt even want to think of the water. i think i went in to my ankles.

we had dinner at this bad little italian place and then went back to the tommy hilfiger beach house only to be kicked out of the sofa we were sitting at...it pissed gen off so he told the manager to get us some champagne and they brought us out the two biggest fucking glasses of champagne i had ever seen. i think i got drunk that day! was just glad to make it to the ocean. it was the first time in YEARS.

i got bored around the beginning of august so i joined a gym. i went like 5 times a week. i didnt go last week at all due to work, but ive gone the past two days and i plan on going again tomorrow and the day after, and the day after.... i tend to stick to the step machine and the weight machines, since i nearly drowned when i tried to swim. how embarassing!! it has been like 8 years since i actually swam. i have this horrible fear of swimsuits and my thighs. but i MUST get in shape since im going to cabo next spring! I WILL BE FIT

photoshoots

i did three test shoots this summer... this is one...my favorite...the pics are unedited and a little dark. we had some trouble (like the security threatening to call the police on us) but in the end it was fine.

a new job!

although just temporary.
i was asked by my dear friend yuko who is director of the brand banana fish. she decided to open a new concept shop in shimokitazawa centered around cat goods and created `pink cat`. she asked *me* if i would illustrate the walls of the shop!! i agreed immediately and set out to do something chic, but was foiled when the told me to do lots and lots of different cats. im thinking what the hell...cats arents chic!! but i reluctantly agreed, and what i thought would take three days ended up being 10 -13 hours a day and came up with this (this is just a little bit)

its like a personal permanent gallery! she loves some of the drawings so much she wants to put them on tshirts...and even open a second store!! at the super small reception we had on saturday on the day before the store opened, even the head editor of kera came (who is actually a very stylish older man in glasses) . very excting indeed!

and my summer came to an end. been in school for a week. its a fucking breeze and i feel like im stomping over everybody (sorry). see y`all next moon!

aaaaaaaugh

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 16:31:53 GMT

so my website that has all my pics ive done so far for styling and the web address on my business card that i give everybody who moves here..yeah, THAT site, is down. and i dont know how to get a hold of bronny since she gave me the space to see whats up with it. so does anyone have any advice for what i could do to get a website up and running ASAP? 焦焦　>_<　please?

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 04:18:58 GMT

ok, so...

had shooting for countdown tv a few weeks ago. i made this really kickass dress that was a vintagey and it had lace falling off of it and it was falling apart and me and my roommates LOVED it. so i take it the fitting at avex on friday night and olivia totally hates it. says its too `grandma-ey` whaaaaat?! so she gives me a list of things she wants changed and i take it home and start basically from zero.... i`ll put pics up as soon as the ep airs this saturday... so i spent two days making an entire new costume and i take it to the studio and their like `it looks TOO perfect, too cute` )(#'$()'!'&#AJHSGQYIG
the manager from avex was kind of freaking out and totally pissed at me and im like sweating my balls off but we ended up taking scissors, mud, and fire to it and it ended up looking ok. i was so exhausted after that...not to mention i never get any sleep when im making costumes.

THEN, less than a week later liv was doing that NANA geurilla street live with tsuchiya anna at studio alta. i made THAT costume as well!! this time it was blue and i put holes in the skirt and hand-dyed the hem with a paintbrush to make it look rusted and dirty. then i made wilted `flowers` out of hand-dyed geosette (umm...i cant remember how to spell that in english! fuck!) and twisted cotton and tafeta around her bust and shoulders. it was so cool! and everyone loved it. except that when she sang her second song and started flailing her arms the loops on her shoulders fell and got caught on her elbow... i was totally horrified...but everyone said it kinda looked like part of the act. phew...i guess?! we met at the hotel at noon and didnt finish til 7pm...what a long day. and they were doing a documentary of the live for Music ON!TV so there was a camera following us around everywhere. it was both unnerving and exciting....unnerving because i was tired and knew i looked like shit, but exciting cuz it means i could be on tv...hehehe

after the show, everyone went to an egyptian restaurant to celebrate. i smoked shisha for the first time. its the first time ive EVER sucked anything other than air into my lungs. have to admit i was kind of scared?! i know it makes me sound like a total cherry virgin but im kind of proud of the fact that ive never smoked *shrug* anyway, it wasnt anything special and the jasmine aroma kinda hurt my throat (i am such a smoke virgin)

last night i went out to a club for the first time in forever, not counting the times i went to see issei DJ cuz im basically there to hang out with him afterwards. so i kind of went off of my head and got WAY too fucking drunk. i called my friend G up and he came out and was buying zan-dawg and i wine and tequila and champagne.... and i briefly remember making out with him in the VIP room backstage?!? holy shit, i dont know what to do with that.... the staff kicked us out, of course...hahaha
i even got to see the prick i talked about in my last entry...the backstage toilet guy...and i was so ready to give him a piece of my mind (AGAIN..ill do it over and over again). but he`s kind of scared of me still and avoided me until i got to drunk to care and then i remember talking to him then just getting up and leaving... i dont think thats exactly what i had in mind!

gotta jet...to be continued...

quick update

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 14:50:32 GMT

whew...its been...awhile!! but even though i dont update my own journal very often, i am addicted to LJ and read all of my fl posts EVERY MF'in DAY..perhaps even more than once a day ^^;;

anyway,

i am now officially olivia's personal stylist, and have been working for about a month! i've done 5 magazines (ribbon, men's non-no, bea's up!, vivi, and kera). ribbon is out now, and men's non-no is on tues, bea's up the day after, kera on the 16th, and vivi on the 23rd. i'm particularly looking forward to vivi because the outfit she was wearing was so kickass. i'm also doing her TV performances! we had a shooting for music fighter (nihon terebi - to be shown late-night on the 30th) and it was sooooo surreal to be in a tv studio with all the dressing rooms (nakashima mika! hamasaki ayumi! tho i didnt get to meet them) and cameras and lights and directors, and....*_* next monday is CDTV, then a live, then perhaps music station.... and im not just borrowing shit, she's so unique that i end up designing and making a lot of pieces... soooo busy!! but its so much fun, you guys.... ive become a small celebrity in my school and things a re looking good (but i still need to find a job before i graduate! i cant afford to live off of just liv's stuff >_<)

also, i have met some more great people... namely a producer i met over mixi who really liked my styling and has become my unofficial PR manager... he kind of shows me off like a prize or something but he's a sweet guy who doesnt *seem* crazy so its all good. plus, he produces SMAP, kimura kaela, SHINWHA etc so he must be pretty talented and respected so he's got props from me.

i still have no love life, although i DID have a close encounter with a famous person ,who shall remain unnamed, in a toilet backstage at a club. i think i was more grossed out by the fact it was a tiny little backstage toilet than the fact he was a pervy horndog...and he had the gall to ask me out later! I MAY BE YOUNG, BUT IM WORTH MORE THAN THAT, YOU *&@!*%$&%#&! also had a lot of propositions from waaay older sugar-daddy-type married men, but i dont play that game... i DO NOT need that bad karma. i totally believe in karma...the other day i saw a huge gigantuous moth by our building's elevator that looked like it was about to die so i carried it outside and put it on the soil and it died right there. i ended up feeling great all day and had lots of luck in what i needed to get done. so im not inviting any bad seeds around me!

ive got kind of a kata-omoi (crush/unrequited love) thing going on right now, but the guy is also in the entertainment industry and has a lot on his plate... i dont know where to look for nice guys anymore... its been 2 *years* people!! >_<

been talking to my homegirl zanna pretty much everyday... we met last halloween, but only started hanging out in april, and now we are pretty much inseperable... i havent had a girlfriend that i can call up and talk and laugh about the dumbest things anytime in so long. she's 7 years older than me, but it doesnt seem that way at all... i love how she doesnt treat me like a child and we can discuss about the different points in our lives on an equal level. she's also very very spriritual and easygoing, and scarily enough, reminds me of my MOM... wtf?!

im stoked for this weekend... i havent been out partying since zan-dogs bday on the 17th last month... tomorrow is a reception for STYLES, sunday is the shortshorts film festival awards ceremony, and monday is the biiiiig world cup party. im not a big soccer fan, but for other reasons, i CANNOT WAIT

just finished spending 2 hours sewing a party dress im making in purple... its inspired from an old helmut lang collection and its so kickass! i just gotta head to nippori tomorrow to find the perfect fabric for trimming... but ever since i moved to yoyogi, anything past ebisu/ikebukuro is like FAR... even tokyo station seems like its far enough to be in inaka... thats not good^^;

well, i gotta iron this baby and then go to bed to get to nippori early... i hope everyone has a nice weekend!~

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 14:12:07 GMT

two weenkends ago i went to hanami for the first time,and i was somewhat unimpressed. maybe it was the fact that by the time i made it there everyone else was already drunk, or that i was on a little bit of an alcohol sabbatical (I had one can of low-alc chu-hi), but i was only there for a few hours before moving on to another one which i left right away. the flowers (that we could see... we were in yoyogi koen and it was just a sea of people for MILES) were pretty, and there was even a wedding ceremony being held right behind where we were sitting with a dj booth and everything. so now ive got hanami checked off of my list of things i needed to do while in japan (only took me three years!)

the next day, somehow Zan convinced me to go along with her to an event at Vanilla in roppongi because the guy she liked was helping to organize it. i heard a rumor that takky was going to be there so i got all excited and dressed up only to find out that Zans guy didnt even know who he was (i think it was 'who the hell is TAKky??!' which he said). so while zan went and had fun with him, i went over to the sofas to kind of sulk and i sat down next to some random guy and started chatting. turns out he plays saxophone in a band and was having a live on the 14th (yesterday) at the same place, and i should come if i can make it. im thinking, 'a band with a sax? how does that work at a club?' but was intrigued, so i grabbed him and made him dance with me even though i dont think he was really into it (haha). he leaves to get a drink, and Zan comes up to me and grabs my arm and says "OH MY GOD, DO YOU KNOW WHO YOURE DANCING WITH?!?!" im like... uh, i think he plays sax. and she's like, "THATS TAKEDA SHINJI! HES LIKE FUCKING FAMOUS!" so he comes back, and im like looking at him, and i still dont recognize him, so im like whatever and keep dancing for awhile until we part ways. then the next day i go home and google him and he's in the horipro agency with all the famous guys including fujiwara tatsuya who i have this sick and strange crush on with a fucking huge filmography *_* he also is like one of the best sax players in japan and played on HYDE'S 666 album...*dies*

on thursday, i heard there was some kind of party being held by the clothing brand diesel and Zan could get us in, so i thought of diesel and could only come up with "denim" so i put on a denim mini skirt, black top and black hat going totally casual not expecting much....... we get to the prince hotel in takanawa and the paparazzi are out in full force with a huge line of people and a RED CARPET with girls dressed up formally walking down it. not only am i like "SHIT IM DRESSED LIKE SHIT", but im also like 'can we really get in here without invites?!?'. Zan worked her magic and had eri who was performing that night in his band come up and get us so we got in to the party ok, but the next challenge was to try to get into the show, since apparently they were having a huge fashion show with their new collection and im like *_______________* cuz i had no idea. we made it in ok, and watched the show which was kind of cool because it was set up to look like "motel diesel" but the clothes were pretty much a snoozer. afterward, we went to go give aisatsu to hiroki who was there (of course he was! the boy is fucking everywhere...) and i noticed ootsuka ai was sitting right behind him. i didnt meet her, but i smiled at her and she smiled back really nicely. i got this really lonely vibe from her tho...was actually slitghtly concerned.

so we went out and tons of gourmet food (fresh bread with cheese and little cups of bouillabaise) with EXCELLENT champagne that they were pouring out like water. in the toilet, i happened to meet this woman named mari who i recongized from the mags although i wasnt really sure what she does. shes japanese but has the fucking coolest english accent EVER and we hit it off really well. come to find out she owns a bunch of boutiques all around japan called FALINE which sell the coolest brands from around the world (she even has NOIR *dies*). i was totally fine all night, but at one point i was on the dance floor with a glass of champagne in my hand when James comes out drunk off his ass and knocks it out of my hand and it shatters ALL OVER THE DANCE FLOOR. no one was hurt...hell, no one really even noticed, but it was like *CRUCHCRUNCHCRUNCH* dancing on that floor for the rest of the night. im sure it ruined a few pairs of expensive shoes...*shrug* i left at about 11pm because i had to meet tomo and then get some sleep for my first day of CLASS the next day, but according to zan they were there until after 2am...yeesh

that weekend, i had two photoshoots... one on saturday which was my own where i did the styling and got the team together and everything, and sunday was a different photoshoot where i went along to assist the stylist and photographer. my own on saturday went relatively well...although i DID NOT like the makeup and hair, and the model didnt either... god, i hope the pics turned out ok. that night we had a herd of people over for my RMs BDAY and i was so fucking exhausted because i had to meet the photographer at 7:30am that morning, but i actually made it to the end. on sunday i was really nervous because i had never assisted before, but it went really well (in fact, i think i could have done a better job if i were the head stylist on this one) and i got to touch 20man ($2K) dresscamp semi-couture shirts and dresses. one of the dresses was a nightmare and we ended up not using it because it was too fucking complicated and it would be our heads if something happened to it. i hope i can work with the magazine myself sometime, and the photographer met with me for a drink to talk about it, but i havent heard from him since the shoot a week ago and im slightly concerned :/

so then i start school and i wanna shoot myself, but my classmates arent so bad, blah ,blah, blah.....fast forward to LAST NIGHT.

last night was some event being produced my samantha thavasa (*puke*) but shinji was going to be appearing playing his sax, and while i couldnt care either way (he's cute, but he just didnt really seem to be all "there" when i met him at tokyonite and it was slightly off-putting) but Zan insisted and she was dragging her guy along, so met them at about 9:30pm at vanilla. luckily for us, SOU was there...this guy who seems to know everybody in the world, so we got our own big table in VIP and were taking shots of champagne (augh...so stupid).so then shinji comes out with his band...3 guys- a DJ, him, and a keyboardist, and its fucking dance music with a sax! it was like modern-day Erasure. it was pretty fucking cool and i was actually impressed. afterwards, we were invited backstage to kampai. we get back there, and i see this guy in a trucker hat and those horrible black rim emo-nerd glasses, and Zan, being the friendly girl that she is, asks him if they are prescription and he says no and hands them to her to try on. she puts them on says that yeah, it doesnt really change and he comes out and is like "WELL YOU DONT LOOK GOOD IN THEM SO OH WELL" (似合ってないからいいや）like really RUDELY, so she hands them back and thats when i look up....ITS FUCKING TOMOYA NAGASE. and he's an ASSHOLE. totally umipressed. he leaves, and zan turns to me with a 'puke' face. he seems really nice since he plays all the pussy boy roles in his shows, but i guess he's just a jerk. zan said she saw him last week in the velfarre VIP surrounded by KOGYARU. yuck. ok, whatever.

i give aisatsu to shinji, and to the keyboardist who's name is issei. they invite us downstairs to the VIP in the lounge to chill, so we follow them down and im talking with issei and his english is fucking amazing. we end up going between the VIP and the dance floor, and i even try to talk to shinji, but i just dont know...hes actually kind of boring and stand offish. in any case, he asked me for my phone number and me-ru address before leaving. i even got issei's card and he wrote down his number and email address. ha! i didnt really want to, but ended up staying til first train and left zan dancing on the floor and came home to sleep for an hour before i had to get up to meet with a photog at shinjuku station +_+. so i come home and sleep til 6pm and then wake up and look up some of these people who i met last night because i never recognize them. i look up (ishida) issei and i nearly piss my pants... he's an actor, and his father is ishida junichi the guy who is on like every variety show... and the same guy who has been divorced twice and they make a huge ass deal about it here. then come to find out issei himself has a child and was just divorced this january +_+. so then i mail shinji...just like 'otsukare sama..yesterday was fun, let me know when youre performing again,yadda yadda'.. and he wrote me BACK!!! im fucking me-ru tomo with takeda shinji!! BWUAHAHAHAHA

this tuesday i have a performance to see at the prince tower hotel by the amazing ms. aoki karen and she's treating me to drinks and food because i translated some stuff for her website~ looking forward to that! on thursday im helping taraman as staff at his unveiling of his new brand and party at SOHOs, and next saturday is another Dazed&Confused party at velours. I have been partying sooooo much...AND I LOVE IT, DAMMIT~~~~~~~

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 08:28:12 GMT

put your playlist on shuffle and go to the next question.

How am I feeling today?:
"Christmas Eve Rap" - Kick The Can Crew
Seifaiden got a xmas song at the start too...and this reminds me of when i first came to japan as well..now im feeling natsukashii today

Will I get far in life?
"Shaolin Satellite" - Thievery Corporation
off to the cosmos for me!

How do my friends see me?:
"This World" -Zero7
AWWW, thats so sweet of you guys *kisskiss*

Where will I get Married?:
"Hyper Music" - Muse

i don't want you/i never will
i dont need you/and i never will

this should be "HOW will i get married?" apparently not for love ?!?!

What is my best friend's theme song?:
"Blind Unicorn" - OLIVIA
uhhhh....ok

What is the story of my life?:
"Joint", Rip Slyme
HAHA....not exactly, but its one hell of a fucking partay, YEAH!

What is/was highschool like?:
"Ruled By Secrecy" - Muse
Well, we DID have a multitude of Mormons and they were always in their little temples that non-mormons couldnt get into doing only god knows what...

How can I get ahead in life?:
"Neodammerung" - Don Davis- Matrix revolutions OST
Anyone know what this means? I put in just "dammer ung" and it translates to "more dammer ung"...huh?? but dayam if this song isnt foreboding. its like i wont get ahead in life because WE ALL ARE DOOMED TO DIE +_+

What is the best thing about me?:
"Walking Shade" - Billy Corgan

I'm out walking shade/
The sun is going out/
The world is getting round/
That I just want you so

How is today going to be?:
"Beautiful Soul" -Jesse McCartney
It was a bit rainy today, but I got my visa extended for a year, and got all my grocery shopping done. I'd say that's ok?

What is in store for this weekend?:
"Sayonara" - L'Arc~en~Ciel
That doesn't sound too enticing. Maybe I should stay in this weekend?? 0.0

What song describes my parents?:
"When The World Ends" - Dave Matthews Band (oakenfold remix)
Awww....geez, they're not THAT bad,

To describe my grandparents?
"Amarantine" - Enya
Very calm souls. Very calm indeed.

How is my life going?:
"Denial" - OLIVIA
ooh...OUCH

What song will they play at my funeral?
"Jiyuu e no Shoutai" - L'Arc~en~Ciel
Beautiful! A little bit too poppy for my taste (for my own funeral, i say) but hell, this just means i'm off to freedom when i drop dead one of these days. i can dig it

How does the world see me?:
"Drifting" - Enya

Will I have a happy life?:
"Dillemma" - Porno Graffiti
OOOH...SNAP. not good, people.....

What do my friends really think of me?
"La Tortura" - Shakira
Fuck. Now way...i'm *TORTURE*? its THAT bad???*_*

Do people secretly lust after me?
"Woman Can Drive" - Don Davis
Hell yeah!

How can I make myself happy?:
"Closed Space" - Acid Android
Uh...no...that will just plummet me into depression, thanksverymuch but i'll pass..

What should I do with my life?:
"Devil Inside-remix" - UTADA (hikaru)
Erm.

Will I ever have children?:
"How High" -Madonna
...I'm thinking more along the lines of "high" as in "one" child. perhaps a tall one.

What is some good advice for me?:
"Sympathy for the Devil" - Rolling Stones
I need more compassion? Understanding? Holy water and a Bible???

How will I be remembered?
"Fortune" - Sowelu

What is my signature dancing song?:
"Vogue" - Madonna
Oh my god!! NAIL ON THE HEAD! i could dance to this song until my legs fall off in a bloody heap

What do I think my current theme song is?:
"Face to Face (demon remix)" - Daft Punk

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
"The Hardest part" - Coldplay

everything i know is wrong/
everything i do it just comes undone/
and everything is torn apart/
oh and thats the hardest part/

sounds about right.

What type of men/women do you like?:
"Fighting in Built up Areas" - Ladytron
Built up areas...as in super fluxury high-rise condos in the city? OK, i can deal!

taken from seifaiden

春休み最中のジョーホー

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 17:01:32 GMT

i had one invitation from alicia who interns at harpers bazaarJ for theatre products which was the first show of the week, but none others. i went there by myself and was immediately escorted to front row. i tried not to show my shock or excitement... i mean, harpers bazaar is HUGE but still...it was my first time in front row ever!! i sit down, and immediately i hear "misha...?" and i look over and martin is sitting two people down from me(the fashion writer who asked me to help him this week..although he never contacted me about *what* he wanted me to do). and the japanese guy sitting inbetween us is fiddling with a fancy camera and sees me and is like 'oh! hisashiburi...'...and i'm like ..i remember this guy...i think...but not really... so the show starts and they show mens, and then they show womens, and i have my little notepad and digi camera like a good little editor making notes all over the place. after the show, i stay with martin and this other guy and im about to leave when we get caught up in the line for the mercibeaucoup show and the japanese guy grabs me and is like...'just get in line!' so they ask me for an invite and i'm like..'i'm with him'..and they let me in...(!!) we sit down and the assistant editor of dazed &confused japan sits down next to us and Mr. Anonymous introduces me as 'misha, the most beautiful girl'...and i'm freaking out because i'm exchanging card with the assistant editor of D&C and im getting really curious as to who this guy im with is.

the mercibeaucoup show was TERRIBLE and its no wonder because the old designer of frapbois utsugi eri was doing it, and it was way over the top and ANNOYING (they had the models carrying pushbrooms sweeping up confetti... i was getting a major headache) . i went home and came back to see SATORU TANAKA because martin had given me an invite and i see mr. anonymous there again... so this time, i'm like ...'are you a photographer?'...he laughs, and says he only is this week, 'so did you come with a magazine?' ...'yes'...which one? 'dazed&confused'.... so i'm like ohhhhh...he must be a freelancer or something?! after that show i go with him to see tei johjima's presentation (which was EXCELLENT! besides the fact that it was held in the shower room of the gaien stadium, it was nice bright colors on impeccably tailored clothes). after that we had 3 hours to kill before the mintdesigns show so we decided to get something to eat. we go to this organic pasta place, and we're talking about lots of stuff...mainly relationships... and finally it comes out that mr. anonymous had started his own business after his fiance dumped him 5 years ago...and i'm like.... 'what's your business??' and he says he OWNS the publication company that produces both dazed & confused and NYLON in japan! i almost died!! and THEN i remembered meeting him last august at a small launching of a t-shirt brand when i was still friends with saera the photographer. he was all sitting on a stool looking kind of erai and bored and when he gave saera and i his cards she freaked out and immediately went into blahblahblah mode so i never talked to him... i can't believe he remembered me?!?!?

after mintdesigns i took a cab with martin and yashi (what i call him) to ebisu and as were leaving, yashi makes me give him a hug ??? ok, i can dig it, i think.

sunday was a break day and i forgoed the jeans and theory shows, and intead went to lilith on monday instead. i didnt have an invitation in my hand, but i was on martin's invite since he wasn't coming, and i told them this in english and they couldn't really understand me, but all i needed to say was 'press' and they took me to the front row again! *dies* ...at this rate i'm gonna get too used to this front row stuff! ana nocon (international model) was in the show, and i have to admit it was slightly exciting to see a show with a top model in it. later that day i went to astroboy in harajuku at QUESThall without an invite and i see yashi sitting waiting for martin. i go up with them and i literally *walk* right in without them even seeing me! we sit second row and watch an AMAZING avantgarde show with hair made into masks on the models, and clothes that reminded me of jellyfish (but not slimy). later that night was ATO which i was determined to get into but i had no invite. so i get there early and call martin to see if he was making it and he says no, even though he said by email we could go together...damndamndamn.... so i tell the staff people that i'm here in place of martin who couldnt make it and the staff guy is like 'oh! right! his wife just had a baby! how is he?' ...and i'm like...'he's good'...totally shocked how EVERYONE knows martin. well, they let me in and its totally PACKED and i see taraman w/ his GF and hiro so i sit with them and watch a pretty disappointing women's but pretty good men's show.

tuesday and wednesday i chilled... didnt feel like going... having no invites and trying to talk your way in is really mentally exhausting. instead i had 3 uchiawase (meetings) with a photog and makeup artist who is working with me on a big photoshoot next saturday.

thursday, i get a call from martin who wants me to contribute to a piece he was writing for the japantimes on the fashion week... but he needed a picture and i didnt have one (he quoted me and my disappointment in the week and printed my photo as a 'fashionista' hehehe). so i went to ritsuko shirahama in the morning and dropped them the meishi i made of martin's website which conveys me as a freelance journalist...kind of, i guess. i sit scond row even though they tried to *move* me to first row. i didnt want to because most of the guests were older women and i was worried of what kind of show i would be seeing. it was ok, ana nocon was in it again, and while some of it was cool, it was a TOTAL ripoff of balenciaga's current winter collection.

after that, even though i would have liked to have gotten to see some more shows, i was on a mission: BUY A FORMAL DRESS. i was going to a really HUGE party that night that Lancome was throwing in anniversary of their new "IT" girl, daria werbowy (a supermodel, for those who may not be in the know). so i needed something smashing and gorgeous and was ready to drop 500 bucks on something FANTASTIC. so i searched high and lo, ALL over harajuku/omotesando/aoyama and find NOTHING. perhaps if i could have afforded dior or dolce and gabbana or something i may have found a dress, but i could find NOTHING i could afford. disappointed, i screwed it and bought a belt and casual retro onepiece for $350

so i get all dolled up, wearing some nice pants and tramando halter with lace shawl feeling a little scrubby and made my way to the ueno national museum and there are limos and shit all over the place and i walk right up (not even in a cab...^^;;;) so i give them my invite that Zan had given me (her company plans big parties like this) and i walk in, and my breath is nearly taken away: there was a huge glass pool with purple low lights casting shadows on willows overlooking it... a superlong walkway covered in stagelights going over the pool to a huge glass building filled with partygoers. i start to step onto the walkway when i woman stops me and says i cant yet because the paparazzi are taking pics of some celebrity who had just shown up. geez. so i go into the party and see Zan running around like a headless chicken, but Liv hadn't shown up yet. i chat with some guys i know, with Zan's sister, and finally they do introductions for daria who is freaking *19* and so bleeping gorgeous... and all the women in the crowd are like 'kawaii!!!' ... daria looked quite perplexed. so then we are treated to a show by CERO...(otherwise known as Cyril...the half american/japanese magician you see on TV all the time). he did some AMAZING things that freaked me out and then all these rose petals fell from the ceiling... it was way too beautiful. and then, i looked over and noticed my friend tomu was talking with none other than Don Konishi!!! tomu introduces us, and some lancome people come around with lipstick to try and don konishi picks some up and puts it on me...i dont know if thats really cool or really weird?!? so finally liv and her BF show up and our friend uran sings some songs from her new album (a super cool jazz album! called tokyo j'z trippin if anyone is into jazz!). after her performance, the paparazzi are going mad over liv and i and uran... they even asked me to pose!! i'm like...'im not famous like these two, but sure!!' now i gotta check all of the womens mags and WWD for my pic :D after the party, liv and her BF and i went to check out an art exhibition and get some wine and take our last train home (i cant imagine paying for a taxi all the way from asakusa (*dies*) . it was quite an eventful evening!!!!!CRAZY!

friday was the last day of fashion week, and i get there to see the first show, taishi nobukuni... i try to talk my way in like i usually do, and finally drop martin's name like 'he can't come'... and the people are like...'martin's already here, yo!'... i'm like oh shit.... hahaha... i got in fine, though and sit behind martin second row. the show was kickass, it was religious and ethnically themed ("we are all equal" or some trite) and had indians in mowhawks, jewish punks, and even an osama bin laden which kinda freaked me out. they all had animals, too... huskies, dalmations, baby goats, even a hawk!! pretty cool shit.

later, i went to hiroko koshino on martin's ticket and then to GVGV... it wasnt in the tents, but rather inside the stadium. i didnt have an invite but was gonna become 'martin' like i usually do, but this time, they stuck me in "standing"!! i just kept telling myself..'im noone special anyway...i should just be glad to be here....',, but i was a little irked... DONT THEY KNOW WHO I AM?! or i guess, who i'll be,... but really, it was just pretty damn cold and my feet hurt. it took forever to get everyone in becuase they did it ONE BY ONE and there were sooooo many people there. the runway was sooo cool though... it was SUPER long and black with these little diamond things thrown all over it which sparkled to high heaven. i stood near the front of the stage and watched lots of bubble skirts with polkadots, and some of the most AMAZING shoes i have ever seen come down the runway.

i had seen taraman and anthony (self-proclaimed "top drag queen in japan-cum fashion designer") walk in so afterward i find them and go to dinner with them and their crew ( incl james and martine). we didnt have much time to eat because we were gonna try to get in to the BIG show...the last of the week...DRESSCAMP and it was scheduled to start at 9:30 so we wanted to get there at 9. we get there, and there are soooooooooooo many people lined up outside and the dresscamp people are handing out moet champagne and on the blowhorns "ANYONE WITHOUT AN INVITATION, DONT EVEN TRY TO GET IN!" and were all like...hmmm... well, the only one with a legit invite is james. so i call martin and im like... ARE YOU COMING??! and he says ..'no'. im like *@#(&!*&%^$#!! but he gives me his seat number. .... there are SEAT numbers!! so i get to use his seat number and i look at the map and its SECOND ROW!! scond row! and at the end of the freaking runway!!! its like the hottest seat ever!!! we dont get in til an HOUR late but i had NO problem getting in...they never even asked...people were pushing from behind. even taraman got in without an invite although he had no seat so he had to stand. i sat down in my 'seat' and i look over and its none other than SUZY MENKES... she's only THE most well-known fashion journalist in the WORLD..!! i knew she she was there because i had seen her walk right past me on monday, but i was told she had gone home. EVERYONE was taking her picture...she was sitting with some older japanese woman i didnt recognize. i got up and shook her hand and thanked her for coming to japan fashion week and she said she was having fun, and she let me take her picture. as for other celebs, i saw top japanese model RILA and the actor narimiya hiroki across from me. the show finally starts and it is SO over the top, semi-couture with proper, tall, beautiful models, great makeup, and horrible trashy clothes (made out of pure mink, mind you). it was like watching a christian dior or other galliano show. it was SO AMAZING!! like the only true fashion show out of japan fashion week!

we all came out of the show on a total high and decided to go with anthony to crash the afterparty. so we walked to the bar "stair" first, but didnt see any kind of a party going on, so we hoofed it in a cab to the other restaurant that dresscamp owns, a three-story mexican place hidden on meiji-doori. we get there and are immediately directed to the bottom floor where they had tons and tons of champagne and catered food. all of us good-looking (ha!) foreigners grabbed a table and were having way too much fun when we realized this party was totally mainly for all the people who actually worked in or on the show. whoops. oh well! i saw ikesue-san who is a photographer friend of mine so i chatted with him forgoing giving aisatsu to the designer since he has no idea who the crap i was and yet i was at his party. hehehe... snagged a ride home in a cab with a manager of SONY so i didnt have to pay for it. score! good thing, too, cuz i didnt have much money!

saturday, i was totally stoked because i was going to a homewarming party for alicia (harpers bazaar) who scored an aprtment 3 minutes from takeshita doori, and then to a DAZED&CONFUSED party at velours. i get to alicia's around 9 in my brand new orange and creme retro dress with gifts of umeshu and its sooo smoky in there from the cigarettes i nearly cant breathe. i notice a girl sitting under and open window in the corner so i make my way there and we end up talking for hours and hours. her name is tamara, a french/british girl who got her picture in the new york times for looking fab in a stapled gucci drycleaning bag after crashing a fashion party in paris. i like her already! so i invite her to the hanami party at SOHOS on thursday. i'll see if i can have a nice girl friend to go to these parties with so i don't always have to go alone.

i left alicia's and stopped off at lee's place who lives behind the christian dior store on omotesando (these people have such great locations!) to pick up taraman but she and her guests were already drunk and playing 'O-sama game'(truth or dare). taraman looked like he wanted to shoot himself. i stayed for one glass of wine and taraman and i booked it out of there and walked alll the way to velours in aoyama. i walk in, and immediately that assistant director of dazed and confused is like, 'can i take your picture??' ..i'm like...sure!! and do a few poses... haha.. i felt so stupid. but i did look fabulous!! i walk into the table area and see yuka-chan (she does press for LEE, edwin, and levis) and we're chillin when yashi finally comes over and motions for us to come with him. so we follow him through the bar and to....TADA! VIP! it was all models, some of them were already passed out and most of them just boys being silly. i met a kid from massachusettes who came here to study but was scouted as a model and is now making a great living off it...which is really cool, cuz he seemed like an acyualy normal guy! diego, the most beautiful boy ever, was all over some other female model, and then RILA and narimiya hiroki waltz in. i swear i see this guy EVERYWHERE. he is like the tara reid of japan... and his face is ALWAYS red. he's actually kinda cute when he's not drunk! so im chatting with this masachusettes guy in the chair when hiroki comes over and PETS my head and nearly sits in my lap and says 'speeeeeeak japaneze preeeeeeeaze!' im like...what da hell!? then yashi tries to get me to sit on his lap and im like..uh-uh... silly men.

before i know it, its 4am and time to go home! but uh-oh, that means i need to take a cab! some random older japanese dude is like..'you can ride in a cab with me!'...and im thinking 'i dont even KNOW you, dude!' so ikesue-san who was there gave me a ride in his two-seater BMW convertible! WHEEEEEEE!

monday and tuesday were spent in sagamiono cleaning my old room and putting in my application for visa renewal. i had 10 bags of garbage from my room. thats a hell of a lot of garbage! i also said good bye to sagamiono... man, i could never leave the yamanote-sen now.

today i slept in til 1:30pm... i coudnt believe it! then i spent all day making a wide-belt for the hanami party tomorrow night. its made of shiny lavender quilted fabric and satin strips i wove in and out of each other. it looks totally kick-ass!! im stoked! then sunday i have like 209881716300 hanami parties. ROCK!

but as for me, im like wow. no, seriously, wow. i don't know how i've been able to get away with all this stuff, considering where i came from. i had NO connections or anything when i first came. i was just a student. i still am. im nobody! its so weird to have people treat me as an equal. if only they knew! ;p

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 12:53:08 GMT

ive been a busy little bee as of late. its funny how everytime i update this thing, people comment how i am living a socialite life... and while i am FAR from being an actual socialite (i dont have cash coming out of mine or daddy's ass and taxis are EXPENSIVE), i sure feel like i am sometimes! i've been hitting up a few parties/receptions a week and i can even breeze my way into VIP via friends and aquaintances. last week at the BENTO party in nishi-azabu's club xcross, i was rubbing shoulders with momoi kaori, narimiya hiroki, and pizzicato5. not long after that, olivia showed up randomly with her BF and came and sat with me in VIP which gave me instant cred since every man in the booth area was oggling her.

a few weeks before that, i got a call from taraman who is working on VIA BUS STOPs catalogue as a stylist about a reception party for their new shop "BERN BERN" in la foret (the 2nd floor on la foret now houses nicola formicetti's avant garde shop 'side by side', the fashion forward men's shop 'gr8', and VBSs' 'bern bern' which makes it THE place to go straight to upon walking in the madhouse of that mall. unfortunately it is a bit out of place with the grace continentals, hysteric glamours, and do as de base's, but hopefully it will fare well). i got to stride right in with the drop of taraman's name and went straight for a glass of champagne. i immediately recognized my favorite 'distant friend'(a nice way to say 'party aquaintance') lee all dolled up in willhelm attire and circus makeup for the reception. why didnt they ask me to model?! oh, that's right, short stumpy models aren't exactly de rigeur... upon finding taraman (after a few chats with the beautiful runway model caroline who i had the plaesure of meeting last year at hiromichi nakano's show, she's still super sweet and totally deserving of her top title despite being slightly vertically challenged in model terms) i noticed a guy looking like a cherry about to explode taking pictures with large groups of people....is it? no...it can't be...but is it?? i turn to taraman with my 4th glass of champagne in hand, and his umpteenth, and ask.."is that guy an actor? perhaps the guy from..." "YESSSSssu!! he is NANA da yO!!" he spittles out. at that very second as if the cosmos were trying to play a trick on me, mr. narimiya hiroki (AKA 'nobu' from NANA, also in last quarter) turns around in all of his red-faced buzzed glory. i immediately regain my composure and manage a "hi!" and taraman introduces us and we shake hands... but not before taraman tries desperately in his drunken stupor to chitchat about olivia and the anime version of nana and my personal and business relation to her, and how it relates to him... and meanwhile im trying to get him to SHUT UP because i know narimiya could give a shit about the anime, but luckily narimiya's friend saves us all by taking him out of the party and probably off to casanova. he parts with a "jaa, mata" and a smile. phew...better a short intro than a bad one. after the 9pm ending time, everyone goes out to move to a club but i had a shoot the next day so i opted to go home...

fast forward a week later and im in takeshita dori trying to gather accessories for another shoot i was doing the next day, and i get an unknown call on my cell. upon answering, i get a heavily british accented 'hello, this is martin webb, fashion editor of japan times, jai gave me your number, is it ok to talk?' ...it was ok to talk, but over the loud gnawing of crepes and ruffling of thankyoumart bags (the caws and cackles of young people going without saying) i could barely hear what he was saying to me. i got 'emergency...osaka...can't make it....american rag cie opening....please attend....pictures...contact hirayama san..." when i figure he's done speaking, i ask if he can send all the info via email to my home acct. upon getting home, i see he wants me to attend the american rag cie opening in aoyama and to take pictures of fabulous fashionistas for his website. i figure why not, i didnt have any major plans and networking is always a plus. so i show up 20 minutes after the 7pm start walking through the cold rain to minami-aoyama (luckily, the omotesando station is near...aoyama is notorious for having no train stations so thats why only the rich can live and play there). i have my 4megapixel pentax optio and my roommates 7megapixel coolpix in tow, and after finding my contact the PR guy hirayama (who was a sweetie, BTW...and so was his wife...>_+)i introduce myself as misha, in place of martin.

hirayama-san:oh! misha! from the japan times!
me: right....japan times...
hirayama:great, glad you could make it. do you need help setting up your camera?
me: *pulls out coolpix* uh,no...i got my camera right here...
hirayama: oh...i see...well, lets get started, shall we? here is our first rack of clothes...do you need me to set them up in the light?
me: uh....actually,i need to take pictures of people.
hirayama: ok, you can stand up on that staircase to get a good shot of the party..
me: no...i mean, *snapshots* of...special people...
hirayama:oh, ok...well here's a pretty big stylist and his two assistants over here..
me: *glances at their black coats and flat brown boots* actually...i mean SPECIAL people..*wink wink*
hirayama: *blank*
me: as in...CELEBRITY special people
hirayama...oh!!!! well...uh, we don't have any yet....but let me introduce you to some people...everyone!this is misha from the japan times!...

..as i smiled wryly trying to keep my coolpix out of sight. it wasnt bad enough my camera was embarrassing, but i only had my "stylist" meishi with me, and i knew people there who were like 'since when did you start doing martin's job?' and then they kept asking me all these questions about martin..who i'd never MET before and i just felt like a total ass. and in the end, no celebrities showed up, and no one dressed fabulously (to give them credit, it was raining outside and everyone was forced to carry their umbrellas around) but in the end the only good that came out of it was champagne and white chocolate covered strawberries. im gonna need to go on a diet! oh, i also got to know the lovely alicia who works at harpers bazaar japan. contact, contact!

and in the coolest news EVAR, olivia called me a few weeks ago and asked me to be her stylist! i was so shocked and honored... i dont know exactly what she wants me to be her stylist for...PV, CD jacket, magazine shoot, but she's been sending me her favorite shots from CD jackets and PV scenes so i think this is going to be BIG. im so nervous but im also so excited because she loves avant garde and *i* love avant garde and its going to be GREAT. in other good news, my photos i did last year with maciej...one of my first photoshoots that we took in the bamboo forest with the colored feathers... they are going to be published in a magazine!! the magazine is called iconiamoda (also iconiamoda.com) and the mag will be released in new york, london, barcelona, buenos aires, and bogota in May. if anyone is in the those cities in may, be sure to pick up a copy!! they love the dark, edgy, fashion forward stuff so it should be cool yo! lastly but not leastly, after chance meeting with martin webb for the first time at the bento party in my super awesome vintage red and black polkadot dress (i got it from value village for a dollar!!) he suddenly contacted me and asked me to help him cover Japan Fashion Week for the japan times and dazed&confused japan starting this saturday. Lad Musician and Dress Camp, here i come!!

tomorrow is my last day of fashion school as a first-year! over and out!

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 14:44:15 GMT

well hello chicadees,.. what a fine day it is...a fine day indeed...to be FUCKING SINGLE!! YEAH!! i had my extra dark belgian chocolate truffles, what else do i need?!?

ive had my head in my ass lately because ive been quite busy trying to do things that make me feel like im actually in the fashion business. in fact, i got my first job at the end of last month! i was styling for a young talento named ookura azusa who is a little gothic lolita hime (although you would never be able to tell as her regualar clothing reeks of liza lisa shibuya-kei~_~) http://www.victorianmaiden.com/ i got money (CASH!) to go shopping and buy whatever the hell i wanted that fit the image of what we were going for. the shoot itself was great, i got some cute little panies and blouses and capes, some girly necklaces, and some streetwear dance type stuff all in one and a half days time and all from takeshita dori/studio alta...i put it on her, and at the end of the day i got PAID!! and i got to (had to?!) keep the stuff... although i was buying for a 14 year old girl, not me! damn...

the producer of the above shoot continues to call me for jobs, but i have school during the week... and while i can miss a day here and there (ive only missed *one* day this entire year...and even missing the one day kept me lost for several weeks trying to catch up!) i cant miss too much... if i dont graduate i cant get a workers visa since i dont have a BA... its a fine line to tread.

i also have a shoot this weekend, and one next weekend. i feel quite lucky because i was planning on buying a bunch of clothes for this weekend's shoot since i dont have anything i want to use for it and i just figured out what i want to do pretty much yesterday. i have been working with an aquaintance's brand at the ROOMS fashion brand exhibition (for buyers and editors/press etc only) as a model/helper and they said they would let me use their conceptual pieces for the shoot! everything is very torn apart and rotting away and falling apart- on purpose of course, and all hand stitched.
working at the exhibition has been tough... its at the yoyogi stadium and there are so many brands vying for attention from a handful of powerful people, but i have been able to meet some interesting ones so far. including gaspard yurkievich (very french...hmmm. VERY french , yes) http://www.gaspardyurkievich.com/ , mihara yasuhiro http://www.sosu.co.jp/ hiroko koshino (scary as hell!) http://www.hirokokoshino.com/ as well as a super famous japanese stylist oomori yuko (a super sweet lady, it was such a pleasure to meet her!) , some editors from fashion news, so-en, and vogue nippon, and some other tall western designer who i didnt recognize but apparently he is opening a new store in omotesando on the 23rd so he must be big. my feet kill and all i do is stand there, but i get to change into different outfits, including $800 sleek trenches (which i get to keep as a gift! yipeee!!) so its all good. tomorrow is from 10am to 6pm...i hope my feet dont crap out on me!

i finished finals last week ...all eight of them... which is more finals than ive ever had at one time in my life, and now we have 12 days to finish some tailored pants. im pretty much on schedule and im making these great widelegged pants out of a shiny heavy black cotton called wepon/weapon/uepon ...

and now its midnight and i need to sleep or die tomorrow!

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 13:24:32 GMT

i feel like a total bitch for doing this, but i swear my roommate put me up to it..>_>;;

anyway,as case in point of some of the lovely conversations one can enjoy on Mixi, i offer this example. i hardly write people back to randomly message me, but i couldnt help myself on this one...

FROM: mr. iwouldntknowsarcasmifithitmeintheface

SUBJECT:hellio,mostly beautiful! lol

hi,we never met before,but I'm ken.nice to meet you.
guess what's! I'll go LA this 19th for 3months.
I hope I'll be a musician,so I'd like to connection about musician and bring my CD someone(maybe record company) I think it's so much harder but I want! lol
if you know any KEY person for me,then you tell me please.

oops!! What do you do?

i don't know if being "mostly beautiful" is supposed to be a compliment or a swift kick in the head-type put down, but i gave him the benefit of the doubt and replied seriously:

duuuuuuuude!!! awesome!!! that is like totalllllly cool man! its so nice of you to write me, and thanks for the compliment~~~~~ u r mostly like beautiful...or something, too.

sorry, i dont kno any1 from the LA music scene but i really think you should go to NASHVILLE instead cuz the music scene there is huge and its easier to get noticed. just like JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE. do u kno him?! he's like this amazing, great, COOL, and great and AMAZING musician, i totally respect him, y know?!?!?

oh adn your english is really good, you cuold totally tlak just like that!!!!!!!lol

good luck, and PEACE MAN!!!!!

and (not) surprisingly, because of a lack of sarcasm fluid in bone marrow here ( i mean, come on, NASHVILLE?!? who'd believe that?!) he wrote back:

SUBJECT:Ｔhanks for reply lil angel.

NASHVILLE? Oh,ok I'll check on it and keep in my head with YOUR FACE lofl!
ah Yeah, Thanks anyway big help!
Hey, I'd be lying if I said "I can speake E in perfectly"
so I wonder if it'll be make misunderstood.
BUUUT, If it goes badly, I'll just try again cause I'm fallen love with MUSICA. chao, husta ruego

....what the hell is lofl? and husta ruego?!? ohhhhhh....yes.

i'll leave this one alone...he may perhaps be beyond help... orrr i can get him in contact with a conservative christian recording company in boise. HMMMMMM.....>;p

nah.

shin-nen no go-aisatu~~

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 10:57:25 GMT

well hello guys!

and happy new year!! boy, what a year its been! ive been all over the place and up and around just been havin a good time. although, this year's winter break has been a million times quieter than last year's... looking back at my journal one year ago, i was doing something like every day, drinking and partying and going to lives/ karaoke etc.... this year i have done NONE of that... so sad!!

last year bronfish was in town and i met her and lauren and tentomushi and had some good times... i was actually in suitengumae today and it reminded me of when i drank an entire bottle of cheap wine myself and ended up puking in her sink o_o;; thats the ONLY time ive been drunk in japan!

so anyway, this year i wanted to party it up like everyday but that really didn't happen... i didnt really know what was going on and while i went to a few get-together things they werent really all that exciting. what i *have* been doing, is chilling in my new apartment in shinjuku~ this place is SO FREAKIN awesome and i LOVE living in the city. i love looking out of the blacony and seeing aoyama and the towers of shibuya rising above yoyogi park...and i love looking out of my window and seeing mynds and docomo tower...and our genkan faces the tocho and center buildings and all the skyscrapers of shinjuku...and if it couldnt get any better, the sun sets over tokyo opera city. it just feels like a dream to have an address in shibuya *_*;; now my keitai addy makes sense! HAHAHA...>_>;; so, uh, anyway, if anyone wants to come chill, you gotta! *wink wink*

for xmas i had dinner at home with miguel and i went all-out and bought camembert cheese, frech bread and garlic butter from the import stores and even made my owl log roll strawberry cake (i called miguel and was like 'do you have a cake?" and he's all "what cake?!?" ...YOU CANT HAVE XMAS HERE W/O A CAKE!!!>_____< its the dumbest thing ever, but you GOTTA do it. i can do without the fried chicken, but the CAKE, man, the *CAKE*...
so then we watched "narnia" and it kicked ass and then i went to bed early. happy xmas to me! >_>;; my mom sent me a package with this cool neutrogena microdermabrasion thing tho that seems to be pretty cool and makes my skin supa smooth. she did good this christmas!

new years was spent with 'liv and uran, this super cool jazz singer who sang at liv's bday party, and a japanese kid my age named kenichi(??!kouichi?) . uran took us to this place off of the seibu ikebukuro sen that was near her jikka (parent's house) and even though it was tokyo, it was SO NOT tokyo.. the houses were waay to huge and new and it was way too quiet, and we went to this deserted temple on a huge pond that was like a lake and rang in the new year. we got there like seriously 5 minutes before midnight (a repeat of last year!) and when it hit midnight, you could hear the monks who were hitting the gongs in the distance and all these birds fluttered up and we were the only ones there and it was really beautiful. then we went up to a normal jinja and waited in line for like an hour keeping warm with takoyaki and amazake so we could do hatsumoude. after that we all went back to ebisu to meet up with a few guys, like rui who's in a band here but grew up in NYC and is pretty damn cool, and drink the night away. i drank a MILLION cups of nihonshu, i swear, but i just couldnt get drunk. probably because i was drinking water with every sip cuz straight alcohol is just really disgusting to me. eh..*shrugs*

other than that, ive been doing a few little modeling /fitting jobs but nothing with styling... im afraid i'll never be a stylist at this pace! >_< i got offered a job in a clothing company *laughs* only because i was doing this fitting job and was silent the whole time and then the designers were wondering my measurements and i told them i was pretty average and theyre all like "woah!! you speak japanese?! you should work for us!" and im like....eh? its funny how you can still really impress people by just being able to speak the language of the country you happen to be living in. ;p

i have also been collecting furniture for the new place and since we didnt use a moving truck miguel and i have been going back and forth to sagamiono with our suitcases just bringing stuff little by little. it took three days to get all my bedding alone here! we so far curtains, a rug, table, pantry/cabinet, tv/dvd/vcr/speakers/, stove, and vacuum. we still need to buy a tv stand, sofa, and fridge, we have a washing machine, but its all the way in sagamiono and its big >_< i still need to get my sewing machines, steamer, and stand up mirror along with all my crap i dont use much from sagamiono.

its been a lot of fun hanging out with miguel tho..sometimes i feel like were too much like will &grace... which is scary because im not nearly as pathetic as grace is >_>;; we watch movies almost every day and he makes me dvds to drop me bitchy little hints like the last one with "cruel intentions" on it.. >_>;; what is that supposed to mean!? ... i loved the movie, tho...already watched it twice..>_>;;;

augh... so i actually have to go back to class on tuesday and i cant believe it because i DO NOT feel like a student anymore... im a big girl in a big city, yo! i dont need no homework! ...but alas, i still have a sleeve to attach, and a hem to raise on my jacket, and a styling board to do by tuesday. i also have knitting to do but i fukkin hate knitting and might not do it..>_<

as much fun as it has been not having a boyfriend for a year (ok... over a year..>_<) i think its about time to find me a man to have fun with! no? yes, i think so... augh...just waiting and waiting and waiting ...and being a fag hag is fun, but ehh...its not exactly a good realtionship career..

so im gonna get back to work on that sleeve... see you all through the year! yoroshiku!

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 15:58:17 GMT

ive got a new apartment with an amazing view (pictures soon! *swoons*) and everything is great... except that i have NO PLANS FOR CHRISTMAS!!

why is it the twisted tradition of christmas here makes me feel like a LOSER for not having big grand plans ?! granted, i would LOVE to go out, but most of my friends have either gone out of the country or already have a significant other to do stuff with that would make poor little baby jesus blush.

the loser that i am will perhaps buy a little bottle of champagne and toast to myself in my apartment and go to sleep early T____T

meme stolen from a fl-er

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 12:42:35 GMT

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
do an actual photoshoot as a stylist, be in a fashion magazine, meet my idol

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i didn't have any resolutions

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no...

5. What countries did you visit?
my home country..

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005.
a job in tokyo!

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Oct 30th when i met you-know-who!!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
becoming a part of the underground fashion industry and making a(n albeit small) name for myself)

9. What was your biggest failure?
not being the best person i could be to others

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i split my knee open and was too scared to get stitches so i have a huge blue/black scar left...

11. What was the best thing you bought?
a new apartment! (well, renting, not buying), but my clothing exploits rate pretty high too

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my little bro...he went from getting a DUI to getting straight As in college..woo-woo!

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my own? i cant really talk about other people like this..its going to be one of my new resolutions...

14. Where did most of your money go?
clothes and the aparment... (+_+)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
a lot of things...

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
"don cha"(?) by the pussycat dolls

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
happier... i think i was pretty bored last year

ii. thinner or fatter?
thinner, i think

iii. richer or poorer?
richer in the amount of money that comes in, but poorer in the amount in my bank acct

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
more MOVING MOVING MOVING

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
eating...wasting time on the net with stupid things

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
no idea yet...

21. Did you fall in love in 2005?
No....:cry:

22. How many one night stands?
None.

23. What was your favorite TV program?
i dont think i really watched japanese tv like at ALL this year (but usually i love it...just no time). instead, i have to say i loved following LOST, veronica mars, and project runway

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I dont think i've ever "hated" anyone.

25. What was the best book you read?
hardly read any "books"...angels and demons was fun... ooh...the anna wintour biography was cool too. other than that, maybe nana, gokinjo monogatari, kurui zaki no hana, etc

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSE!!!

27. What did you want and get?
um...the apartment?

28. What did you want and not get?
a BF?

29. What was your favorite film this year?
aughhh....errrrrmmmm.....party monster was pretty fun

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i went to school, came home to find the nest door house on fire, and had oden from 7-11... i turned 22

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
getting a paid job? a bf?

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
sleek 60's and lots of BLACK

33. What kept you sane?
my friends

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
uh, still HYDE

35. What political issue stirred you the most?

36. Who did you miss?
my family

37. Who was the best new person you met?
i've met TONS of cool people this year...ko-chan, taro, tara-san, zanna, jai, yuuko nishida, maciej, and many many more...

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
if you cant say something nice, dont say it at all

39. Quote a song that sums up your year:
?_?

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 13:18:17 GMT

quick update:

i turned 22 on thursday! (and the house next door burned up! WHOAH)

i met prefuse73 at a north face party in shibuya on saturday- AND got pictures!

im gonna be in FUDGE magazine out this sat (AUUUUUUUUUUUUUG(*@()*!IOUQOIYE)

i got my hair cut! its SHORT

I AM MOVING TO SHINJUKU...our realtor just called and said the background check came out all ok and i'll be living 10 MINUTES FROM SHINJUKU AND YOYOGI STATIONS, respectively. i am gonna parta~a~a~y !! no more depending on the trains!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSS

oh, and i am STILL )(*#@)(*!@ single and have no plans for xmas like the loser i am . d'oh.

so now... does anyone have any tips on smooth moving in japan? what about net IPs? we are thinking about hooking up with yahooBB, what do y'all think? any other tips? HELP ME, ITS MY FIRST APARTMENT >_<;;

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 13:50:45 GMT

:check pulse:

...still ticking...

ok, i'm alive.

i havent publically updated in freaking ages (not like i fl stuff often either tho)...0_0;. but anyway, recap for november...

bunkasai-

so i was deeply involved in the bunkasai this year, signing up my soul for a part in the big fashion show. since im in the stylist course, i didnt have much choice in what i wanted to do, so i picked the best of the lot and became a "dresser". we basically are the people who take care of the clothes and accessories backstage and help the model change into each outfit on time. i thought i would have a bit of free time while classes were cut short and we had a few holidays...HA! they had me hogtied for 11 days from 7am to 11pm nonstop... and most of that time was spent waaaaaiting. i had to cancel all my baito which made me poor, and all my business stuff which kicked me in the ass >_<
BUT! the show was pretty cool, the last scene (which is always the "best" that the haute couture students make) had the models in 16 centimeter platform heels and huuuuugely exaggerated dresses and suits made of arabian-inspired textiles. it was set up to kind of look like a wedding party. pretty cool stuff, gave me goosebumps everytime. japanese idolism reared its ugly head, though, the student "models" were treated like gods and everyone cowered at their feet and sucked so much ass their gums were bleeding. nearly every one was younger than me and while i totally respect them for putting in so much work for the show, i wanted to scream GROW UP! at all the little gaggling fanclubs. i didnt even go to any of the before or after-parties... i can think of so many more enriching activities to partake in.

the bunkasai show gave me great experience for working in the tokyo fashion week show i worked at though. at bunka in the stylist department, we get a lot of requests for student workers to do fashion shows all year round as dressers. i got a request to help at hiromichi nakano's show for tokyo fashion week (it was japan's first fashion *week* ever!). hiromichi was closing the week off and admittedly i had never really paid attention to this brand before so i was looking forward to seeing what was in store.

...the place was total chaos... the clothes were like circus costumes, everything was running late, the designer was a talento before turning to fashion so there were celebrities there (and kyon-kyon (read: koizumi kyoko) and hana-chan were actually *in* the show) and the top japanese models like caroline, an, anna, and la-la were there, and the other people from my school would NOT calm down. i just rolled my eyes and waited patiently while the head and assistant stylists bad-mouthed everyone. again, i chalk it up to experience, and it gives me fodder to talk about when meeting other industry insiders. as i was leaving, i even ran into jai west outside who was waiting for kyonkyon or hana i'm assuming which was totally random.

i literally *ran* straight from the show to omotesando to meet ken before heading to fashion night at velours. i met ken at the halloween party tera-san had at his press room a few weeks earlier. i got a call from shibuya about a party there but the trains weren't running so i just turned to this guy who was a good friend of tara's and was like "wanna go to a kickin party in shibuya?" and he was all 'sure, lets take my bike' and i got to ride a motorcylcle for the first time EVER from harajuku to shibuya. it was SO AWESOME, even though my legs hurt the next day (T_T) (BTW i went as an "android" for halloween- i got this kickass straight black bob wig and wore black with a miniskirt and lots of silver zippers and bright neon blue tights with red eyes..it was awesome!). so anyway, i called up ken and was like 'come to velours!' and he was all 'cool!' so we went to velours cuz this stylist nana-chan was doing a show which means the party-goers would actually be young and hip, even though ken was just getting off work in his suit and orange skin from vacationing in hawaii (business owners...hate em...>_>) . we missed the show by like 10 minutes, even though i saw the pics and it sucked anyway... i could have done so much better...

the party was great as usual, and i even ran into shogen, who is a good friend of liv's who was in the show. another really strange coincidence for the day! i also ran into ikesue-san who is the photographer at all these parties and he gave me a postcard of an exhibit he was doing of all his party pics and i was in a bunch of them! the exhibit was in tokyo and i didnt have time to get over there so i didnt get to see it, but i was totally in an exhibition where every picture of me is in a drunken state of glory! score! had to leave by last train which sucked cuz it was a good party and theres few and far between in tokyo these days T_T

...and this will have to be continued later (damn, i only got to nov. 9th! >_<)

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 13:41:33 GMT

ugh.... so this has been a rollercoaster week... i got the prints back from saera for our last shoot and they....weren't very good. i dont know if its the lighting, or what, but they dont look like *fashion* photos.

so, im like...i spend over 10,000 yen on accessories and shit for this shoot and i get crappy pictures...i am NOT happy. well, but im just like... i'll leave it, and just work on looking for another photographer. well, then she tells me the good news that her agent in LA is willing to take some of our work to asia with him on his business tours- great, right? well, he says that our stuff is not good enough (surprise, surprise) and that we need a big name brand and he'll take the photos with him.

well, im thinking ...fuck, i cant just go into a big name japanese brand and be all 'give me some clothes, please' and then promise th/em high fashion pics we will be showing to taiwainese VOGUE etc and then give them crappy quality pics... so i meet with her yesterday, and i tell her im not happy with her lighting technique... that its too street/PR/photo journalistic, and not stylish/glossy/impactful enough... so if im going to put myself on the line, i need to know if you can do those type of pictures.

..and she was kind of ok when we left, but today i met with her because she demanded her magazines she lent me back, and she blurts out in super rude japanese (she always had spoken to me in english before) like how DARE you say something like that to a photographer when you dont know anything about pictures!!' and im like...i may not be a photographer, but i know a good picture when i see it, yo!!' ..and she says she has a different stylist so i can forget about the asia thing so i'm like..'whatever'.... and then i hear right away from a friend that she's trying to call MY contact and borrow clothes from his company... which not only pisses me off that she's trying to go through MY friends and steal MY contacts, but its not even any brand name stuff i was gonna go after... but whatever... im really stressed now, though... i have no photographer now T_T

here's the link to the pics...what do you guys think???! compare them to the first pics...the last two galleries are hers (with the pics in question being the last gallery) and the first three are other photographers...
misha.nejimaki.net (and i have to give a shoutout to bronfish for giving me web space..thankiiiies!).

so i really wanted to go to see hyde's live at the end of the month so i asked playboy taro to see if he could score a tic for me and he said he would try but he hasnt written back in over a week (he drives...me....crazy!!!). so i look at auctions and ONE ticket is going for upwards of $700!!!!!!!(my GOD!!) and then i look at the scedule and i see OLIVIAs name on the lineup....im like ..WHAT?! so i guess she's back in tokyo!? i didnt dare email her because i just thought she wouldnt remember me or anything, but i was really depressed yesterday and didnt think i had much to lose so i sent a little mail.... and she wrote BACK! score! and she even wants to talk about styling and pics! DOUBLE SCORE! stupid saera doesnt know what she's missing...HA!

tomorrow im going to an exhibition to look at some kickass boots an aquaintance is importing into her shop from italy... they are REALLY AWESOME... i hope i can get some pics!! ive also been invitied into another brands atrium and hopefully i can use some of her stuff (if i can find a damn photographer!) and i also met an editor of nylon and dazed and confused japan at a party last friday and i sent him a really nice email and he wrote me back right away thanking me, and hoping we can meet again sometime. i hope, i hope!

peace out for now, must make some phone calls and stress out some more +_+

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 14:57:02 GMT

augh...i really wanted to go out tonight but the only invite i got looked really lame (morning musume wannabes who fingerpaint..or something??) and i didnt want to call up these business i guys i meet at the clubs and be all HEY, DO YOU, LIKE, KNOW OF ANY COOL PARTIES, LIKE?!! so i'm saving my money and staying home doing absolutely nothing productive (but i did watch the newest ep of LOST..cool shiot).

this morning i did have a photoshoot... a mens shoot with a british model who is a friend of saera ( the photog). i borrowed clothes from my friend who designs a line called CavariA, a darkish casual line with the brand name tattooed EVERYWHERE on the clothes (seriously, yuck...but anyway...). we actually used the storage room in the basement of their press office and saera rented lights and shit but we didnt end up even using them. i bought a bunch of silver jewelry and colored lining material and made different accessories with it... we only had 3 looks, but i think they turned out REALLY nice, actually. i had to ask my classmate erina to do the hair and (very little) makeup again, and she seemed really nervous this time and hardly ever spoke a word... i mean, i guess i could have straightened his hair and put wax in it just as well, but it would put way too much work on my shoulders so i'm glad she was there. we all squished down into this small little storage space for 4 hours with dust and hooks everywhere, but i'm stoked i got to do it. i have one more i have all the clothes for, i just need the model, and another i would like to do soon as well... but it would be really nice to start getting some work soon!

last saturday i went and saw l'arc~en~ciel LIVE at the TOKYO DOME.... i met my host mom and sister from my HS days in nishinomiya at roppongi hills and the three of us plus two tokyo family members went out to eat and window shop... after that the three of us headed straight to the tokyo dome... it was raining and there were sooooo many people. my host mom bought a tour pamphlet, but i didnt buy anything because it was the "asia tour" and they had this camp CG dragon all over everything (but i did want the poster! i would have put it up in my bathroom next to the SMILE tour poster... but it was 1,000yen and i was/am totally broke). our seats were on the first level to the left side. we more close than far from the stage, but this is the tokyo dome so the band was still SMAAALLLLL... like, i didnt even bother looking at them and just watched the screens (which were also pretty small..HELLO! get bigger screens!). but anyway, the concert was AMAZING... since it was the capping off of their tour in asia, and they already did their AWAKE album tour, this was more of a trip down memory lane with a lot of oldie but goodie songs. ie honey, winterfall, snowdrop, shinshoku~lose control, kasou, LOVE FLIES, promised land, NIJI, etc.... and the guys were super GENKI...dancing all around and cracking jokes and acting stupid and just having a great time. at the SMILE tour last year they were so...blah...and hyde wasnt singing very well (as usual) but at this live, all of a sudden he could SING...and i'm seriously thinking to myself...who is this person, and DAMN, CAN HE SING!!! 0_0 but there were 60,000 screaming fans and the energy was just insane. i give it an A+++++++++ i still love laruku to death +_+

on monday i went to the FOTUS shop headquarters to interview the press lady for an article i'm writing... Fotus makes those crazy plastic cyber goth clothes you see advertised in kera every month. not really my bag (and i went dressed very 50s to the interview...heh) but i thought it would be interesting for the article. in fact, i already had the article written, but the press chick invited me to look at the stuff up close and talk to her and i thought it would be cool playing "journalist" so i went.... it was over in 15 minutes. the chick was super lethargic and i just asked a bunch of bullshit questions... it was kind of fun though. i did add two extra sentences to my article afterwards ^^;;

mmm...tuesday i worked, wednesday i went back to harajuku and bought accessories for today's shoot, thrusday... ooh... thursday i went to this mens exhibition fashion show at la foret that james was in. he put saera's and my name on the guest list and i when i arrived i was alone and just went right in and they ushered me to the front row! i was like...sweet... i put on my big anna wintour sunglasses and all of a sudden i hear my name being called.. i look over and there are four of my male classmates standing up against the wall... theyre all like...what the hell are you doing here, misha?! and why are you in the front row?!? and i'm just chuckling to myself because i have NO IDEA ... but i learn to go with the flow. anyways...im glad my classmates saw me because now they know DONT MESS WITH ME, HAHAHA *evil laughter*. seriously, if one graduate out of my year becomes a stylist, its going to be me..>_> MARK MY WORDS!!

in other (non)news, i have a bad feeling that im going to have trouble finding a decent place to live next year. i wrote to nikkenhome asking about an apartment and they wrote back right away, not caring that i was gaijin, but then they told me the place i wanted was run by yakuza(!) and the previous tenants didnt even last a year(!!) and the new tenants are the police(!!!!)..so i told them what i was looking for and that me and my roommate want to find a place together, and he's like...'its going to be really really hard...i dont think you can convince the landlords to rent a good room to you'...so now im all depressed and sad because i have me heart SET on moving to the sangubashi/minami shinjuku/yoyogi area next year. i refuse to live here another year!!

and as a final note, the newest issue of BRUTUS (japanese mens fashion) and italian VOGUE are AMAZING and everyone should flip through them PRONTO! fini.

hyde OCT 28th live

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 12:46:41 GMT

would it be possible to get any info on hyde's live for the 28th if anyone knows? i'm assuming it's invitation- only, but i'm wondering where the thing's at, and what it is, exactly (info seems to be reserved for hydeists..??>_<). thanks a bunch

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 03:05:11 GMT

i really should be sending in the pictures of our photoshoot and an article to the editor of reactor right now, but i'm being lazy until noon...

on friday i went to an exhibition for CavariA , a mens punkish rockish streetish brand which is designed by tara, the guy who found us miyuki (our model) for our shoot. he is goin to let us use his clothes for a test shoot for saera's lover-boytoy-friendwithbenefitsorsomethingorother-model friend for his comp card. personally, i hate the clothes and i'm trying to stay away from mens clothes as much as i can lest i confused for a mens stylist, but tara is a good guy and i think we could get some interesting pictures for him. anyway, so after the little meeting, tara and i made plans to hit up the mude trump party at warehouse in azabu juu-ban that night. i'm always nervous when i go out without saera or another female or close male friend because i always have to be there all night waiting for the train so if the party sucks and everyone leaves, i'm screwed. but i showed up at midnight and it was pretty damn hopping, although i only knew one guy there at first... so we chatted for a while, then tara showed up and introduced me to his friends and then the performance was starting and that's when it got really fun...

downstairs from the ruby cafe is a club called warehouse, and while the cafe/bar is all chic and cool, the club is pretty damn awesome... they have the dj booth up above with a small stage, and then a catwalk with a pole at the end. the performance was by the four goldfinger girls (of the goldfinger women-only event fame) who did an amwesome burlesque dance where one girl actually broke the pole :X later on, an amazing new half got up on stage and did a strip show with swarovski crystal pasties all over her body. i was going back and forth up between the cafe and the club when i got bored, and i spotted mr. stood-me-up (but still HOT- and he apologized after that...i wasnt happy at all at the time, but i'm over it now) talking with the club owner. so i go over there and he introduces us... the club owner was obviously an ex host but i commended him for putting up such a cool place. for the rest of the night me and my playboy crush hung out together, dancing and drinking and meeting a bunch of cool people (and i swear he had his hand on my ass every chance he got.. but i'm not much better...i disappear and go flirt with someone else and reappear later... only to find him talking with some other girl...gee, we're perfect for each other!). anyway, i was going to take the first train but i ended up being out til after six and taro (above guy) and his entourage wanted to go out to eat and karaoke but i was dead tired so i went home.

i got home at 8am and woke up at noon to go to ebisu to scout a location with saera for our next ladies shoot. were doing a retro style party shoot and my friend kochan has an awesome room in ebisu where he made all these 60s style shelves and decorations and painted it all yellow. so we scoped it out (its only 5.5 tatami mats! its a good thing he doesnt actually live there, or i dont know how we'd be able to use it..). and had champagne and then went out for thai food at this really quaint underground place with tons of psychedelic (???!) paraphenelia all over the place. saera had to check out early to go work (she kinda looks at me like 'feel sorry for me, i actually have to work' but i'm not falling for it... ) . kochan lives out at narita and doesnt come in often so i decided to stay and chill with him for the evening. we heard about some kind of mexican thing at studio cafe in harajuku, but when we got there there was hardly anyone there so we went to heartland bar at roppongi hills for a drink and then a small place in shibuya run by an italian guy for one more. this italian guy was the nicest rudest person i have ever met. he was really friendly, but when we got there we were the only ones there and hes a friend of kochan's so he goes off saying how kochan and i would make a great couple and THEN we should go get married (and he would NOT shut UP). then he has the balls to mention i have some male qualities about me and asks if i was actually born a woman or not...and he's dead serious...so i get pissed and stop talking, and then he gets on me about that, and i'm just like... i need to get out of here.. I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THAT. its like, they get me where it hurts the worst because i never know what to say back. so we leave and kochan says yohji and tera-san refuse to go back there too.. i'm joining that list. kochan was meeting yohji to go to la fabrique for some brazilian night but i was still tired from the night before and didnt feel like waiting for first train again so i went home. as i was getting out of his car he leaned over and gave me a kiss on the cheek. fuck. well, he's super cool...he looks like a buddha...bald head with the huge rings in his ears (though he isnt round at all..haha) and he's like a Japan BMX champion and was in a levi's ad and makes kick-ass hanko for a living, but i'm not interested..sorry, kochan >_<

but anyway, the next day tara invited me to a little picnic in yoyogi and kochan said he was going too, so after baito we went to the park and met tara and his GF, tetsu who composes music, kuma-san who does men's leather goods,a documentarian, some designers, cooks, a hostess, hayashi (bobby) who own a clothing factory etc etc. there were a couple gaijin italian flamers who were stripped down to their skivvies baking in the sun too. heh... we got there at 3pm and i was going to leave early but we ended up staying right in that spot til 9pm and then going to yakitori afterward.. one thing i (re)learned that night is that i really am weary about staying with a japanese guy forever... this guy bobby is a super sexy hot 35 year old with a great smile and sense of humor who stayed at the picnic about as long as me.. i actually thought he was gay by the way he talked, but then we somehow got on the subject of families at about 7 at night and bobby says he has a wife and two kids.... huh?!? if he has a family then why is he here with us??? and while he is super sweet, he was flirting with a girl named hitomi who came with her *bf*...and i'm just like... i don't get it. and then at yakitori he was pretty drunk and he said he thinks his wife is ugly and its better to marry an ugly girl versus a beautiful one (i highly doubt his wife is ugly..he's too hot) but still, it made me sad... i hope his wife wasn't waiting for him at home since i'm sure he wouldnt be getting home til after midnight T_T i also learned a new expression..."kazoku dai service"...when men who are married who are never home actually spend a whole day with their family/ and/or do something nice for their family. and this is called doing a *service*! augggghhhh....

so anyway, i'm done being a party girl (for this weekend anyway.. i need to lose this alcohol stored up in my belly before i go out again +_+)..ew

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 12:08:16 GMT

i can't even remember what i've done over the past month, but i spent the summer after coming back from the states going to parties like 3 days a week... some were great, some really sucked ass and i wished every minute i lived in the city so i could take a cab home and not have to wait for the first train in jonathon's in my party clothes like a schlooser.

i fell for a guy, but then he stood me up so boo to him. i just hope that later on i get a styling job with his company out of it...

speaking of styling, i had a photoshoot yesterday for an american culture freepaper... we used a japanese model and my friend saera who wants to move from event photography to fashion photography and boo-san who is a shiseido hair and makeup artist. we got ready in a salon in harajuku with boo-san then we had rented a location van and so we took that to shinjuku-gyoen, but when we got there at 2pm, we saw that the park closes at 4:30....fuckfuckfuck... it was my fault for not checking since i found the location... DAMNJAPANESEPARKS! so i was freaking out because we had 6 looks to take with a lot of props... but we ended up getting 5 before we were kicked out so i guess its good enough. i used a collection of PLEATSPLEASE by issey miyake from saera and i handpainted a bunch of little garden objects silver, gold, and copper (my poor RM aimee had to deal with all the fumes for about a month :x) . we are hoping to get one used for the cover because it would be REALLY GOOD for our portfolios even though it really is just a lowly washington freepaper.

And then i might be doing an ad campaign for a polish jeans company next month if all goes well.. i was going to do a calendar but the company wanted too many white models and its just not economically a good choice to use a bunch of white models in japan since theyre so expensive. i would get paid though!

but anyways... school started last monday and i really am finding this first year to be a total waste of time... and i'm missing a bunch of opportunities to network with people since i can't go out during the week like EVER. and i'm broke this month already....

speaking of being broke, i'm really broke because i'm getting all my body hair lasered off! actually i already did it... costs about $2,000 over a period of two years... this first time i didnt really notice much of a difference... the hair stops growing after two weeks but only some of it falls out and youre stuck with nasty long hair for two months until the next cycle... and that really sucks... especially the armpits! but its going to be sooooo nice not ever having to shave ever again!

i also went and saw the japanese version of 'phantom of the opera' on stage in ginza on thursday... what a strange, strange, feeling... at least it was better than the movie which i fell asleep and never watched the ending. hm.

i bought some black highheel greek-ish strappy sandals from isetan during bargain in july and after wearing them like 5 times, one of the straps broke rendering them useless. so i took them back to the store and they were like 'uhhh...we'll send them to the manufacturer' so like TWO WEEKS later (uh, summer is pretty much over now!) they come back so i go to try them out and the stupid manufacturer SHORTENED a totally different strap for some odd reason and there wasnt even any room to put in my toes... the lady is all like 'uhhh... i guess it's shortened' DUH! i can't get my foot in!! so they try to get me to let them send it back again im all forget it, i'll take my money back. and since i didnt have my receipt they are giving me back the full price of the shoe! so i'm thinking of picking up some vivienne westwood red label black stacked heel pumps or something... they're soooo cute! i can't wait for fall and i can wear lots and lots and lots of black! woohoo~~~

i wanna see NANA and charlie and the chocolate factory T_T

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 15:39:40 GMT

a horribly mean meme...

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet tentoumushi? through Pla
2.~What would you do if you had never met wagashi? throw my ass out of a speeding train
3.~What do you honestly think of tentoumushi? she's the most hardcore pla fan.ever.
4.~Would or did tentoumushi and firestrings go out? hey...they both love jrock!
5.~Have you ever liked windbourne? aww, you're cute honey, but the team doesn't play that way
6.~If seifaiden died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? THANK YOU FOR LENDING ME LARC'S HEART ALBUM WAY BACK WHEN! IM FOREVER GRATEFUL!
7.~Would bronfish and tentoumushi make a good couple? hmmm... maybe they would hurt each other physically
8.~Describe tentoumushi in 3 words: baka ni nattanoni
9.~Do you think tentoumushi is hot? dude, kendra, youre all over this thing!
10.~Would seifaiden and tentoumushi make a lovely couple? well, is seifaiden's BF wouldn't mind...
11.~What do you think of when you see firestrings? dude, is that guy on TV?
12.~Tell me something humiliating about tentoumushi: well, i have some funny pics instead...
13.~Do you know any of starofpersia's family members? no, i dont
14.~What's tentoumushi's favorite color? no idea
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is tentoumushi? oh my god, this thing is trying to hook us up!
16.~What would you do if marichan201 just professed their undying love for you? i'd be like...'whoah'
17.~What language does tentoumushi speak? english?
18.~Who is tentoumushi going out with? probably me, by now
19.~Is tentoumushi a boy or a girl? a girl AFAIK
20.~Would tentoumushi and marichan201 make a good couple? agh...
21.~Who do you think tentoumushi would be great with from this list? IM SORRY KENDRA THIS THING IS BEING AUGGGH
22.~When was the last time you talked to tentoumushi? at the pla zepp live
23.~What is windbourne's favorite band? something angura maybe?
24.~Does bronfish have any siblings? ah.....god....no?
25.~Would you ever date starofpersia? again, with the whole sexual preference thing...
26.~Would you ever date tentoumushi? ung
27.~Is tentoumushi single? maybe
28.~What is tentoumushi's last name? I HAVE NO IDEA
29.~What is tentoumushi's middle name? ERGH@!)(!)(*!*&`
30~What is tentoumushi's fantasy? AUGGGGGHHH!!!!!!!!
31.~Where does tentoumushi live? *DIES*
32.~Would you make out with tentoumushi? +_+
33.~Are wagashi and starofpersia best friends? NO THEY DONT KNOW EACH OTHER
34.~Does tentoumushi like tentoumushi? OMFG YOUVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME
35.~How did you meet tentoumushi? ON A SPACESHIP
36.~Is tentoumushi older than you? SHE'S *GOD*, SHE DOESNT AGE
37.~Is tentoumushi the sexiest person alive? yes. yes, she is

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 22:39:12 GMT

so i left the states on the 11th at 7am, took a flight to LA then left LA to tokyo and ended up there on the 12th at 4pm... DAMMIT >_< when i got off the shuttle at my station, it was raining, but i had to call miguel to help me with my luggage since the arthritis had crept up and i couldnt carry that heavy shit (i'll probably mention it a few times until i get used to living with it...but right now it hurts like hell, and not being able to function normally really bites) so he put me in a cab, and i paid with my *last* 640yen and proceeded to go up to my room and crash at 10pm.

i spent the last week in my hometown hanging out with my small group of friends i grew up with, including dico who really has anger issues and hates our guts, but decided to grace us with her presence anyway, bless her heart. we took a daytrip up to the camp we went to together every summer and invited all the guys we hung out with (including my date for prom!) and had a party at my house with good ol american beer and pizza. i also met up with mamie and remiko from my disastrous year of attending college and went dressed up like white trash to the only club in town and pretty much stole the show. its funny, remiko's parents actually live on the same train line as me here and she's coming to visit so i'll see her in a few days.

my last 3 days, i ran around with my mom like a headless chicken trying to shop for everything i needed (almost got everything...forgot to get my foundation from nordies..dammit!) and ate out every meal and proceeded to gain 7 pounds just like *that*. i'm horrified how easy it was 0_0

said goodbye to my mother and father.. my dad actually started to get all emotional and proceeded to tell me how it felt when i was born and he officially became a "dad"... it was the sweetest thing.. ive never heard that story before NOR see my father cry. i suppose its because i cant promise a time when i'll be back, though i may visit seattle if hannah ends up getting married.

so i got on the plane, it sucked ass...blah blah blah... fastforward to saturday the 13th, and miguel wakes me up because he's going to be marching in the gay pride parade and has extra ribbons for me and my roommate to get in. so we meet him and javier in yoyogi park and its just amazing... SO many people from all over the world dressed fabulously to the nines in the scorching heat. miguel introduced me to all his gorgeous (>_<) brazilian friends though they spoke in portuguese a lot and i couldnt understand :/. anyway, we were in block 3 and we made this huge loop from shibuya to harajuku and back to shibuya following a truck carrying a marie antoinette spewing out techno versions of such hits as 'we are family' and britney spears' 'toxic'. by the time we made it back i was fried like a lobster (so much for 50SPF!) and ready to collapse. afterwards, miguel invited me to arty's in 2chome to party, but i felt like an outsider and it was their day so declined.

actually, i had many choices for last night:

JACK party at velours
go clubbing in roppongi with roommate
watch tokyo bay fireworks with freaky guy who macks 24/7
hang out with ko-chan, who i might convince to go with me to said JACK party.

i could only choose one, and it tired me so much to think about it (plus the day spent in the heat) i ended up canceling them all and falling asleep at 10:30pm... then i woke up at 5:30this morning. oops.

i really need to call ko-chan though... he's this guy i met at the JACK reception party, the monkish guy in the kimono... he met me at the airport before i left for the states and bought my lunch at this thai place and gave me fresh aromatherapy herbs and a MARBLE HANDCARVED GIGANTIC ASS HANKO.. it has my full name with an iron in the middle !!! i cant even begin to think how much it would have cost if i had paid full price for the thing. he does that for a living, and i dont know if he's just being nice, or..... i guess he gets the benefit of the doubt.

so its obon now and things are boring and I WANT TO GO OUT.

but first i must unpack. >_>